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A Post JLT.....

2012-01-24T23:57:00.004+05:30

Life sure is not that simple...Even if you think, it is a bed of roses, trust the people around you to make things complicated...

And you will suddenly be surprised to find out, how much people know about your life than you do...how much they know whats happening in your close quarters... and finally you will be left in awe thinking : "God, I didn't know this was happening with me"...

But,sit back and think ....you will realize....

1.How imaginative these people are...

2. And how very jobless they are....

It used to bother me...true...but now, I, for the sake of myself, dismiss these as figments of imaginations of some mentally disturbed jobless people..... n so finally I am happy...

(This post may sound crazy, just like many of my other posts...But believe me, this is just an outcome of some crazy and stupid events, that I had to face recently...and that too , caused by people whom I thought had a very sane self!!!!)

chitz....

A New Year...A New Beginning

2012-01-03T14:47:00.002+05:30

Happy new year folks.. Its been a pretty long time since I visited this page...Well, thought would start afresh this new year...

Last year had been pretty good...Well you could say my life has taken a huge turn around...for, me I got a promotion in my family status and now adorns the title of "mom"..yeah, I am a mommy now, to a cute little girl..who does nothing but religiously sleeps, eats and poops.. and at times yeah, gives us a dimpled smile....

Ah well...my life is not completely revolving around diaper changes and feeding sessions, as I got my mom to help me round the clock..:),,But yeah, should say shes taking up a huge portion of my time which I previously had devoted for shopping, sleeping and doing pretty much nothing...you could say it in one word as my free time....

And apart from that nothing much has changed from being a non-mom to a mom...and there is this feeling I get, when I sometimes notice her sleeping beside me, a new human being, with little feet, little eyes and everything little...suddenly into our world...n there i lie thinking, "Yup, there lies my creation"!!! ( not that I take the complete credit)...

Well... shes all of a month now, n me, I am slowly trying to get back to my line of work and stuff...

That's all which is new from me....

Till the next post...

ciao....

chitz....

A Long Wait....

2011-09-25T23:34:00.001+05:30

The fear of loneliness...the fear of seclusion....don't know, what made her do it......

She waited and waited for someone, who would never come back again.....

Hope, that is what she lived on....

She understood the passion in his last kiss....

But she failed to understand its lack of promise......

Alas, if only she had realized that.....

Sometimes its quite foolish trying desperately to relive those memories again...

As times change..n along with it, so do people....

And all you are left behind with....is a handful of memories and unfulfilled promises.....

chitz.....

The Exam Aftermath Crisis..

2011-06-05T19:24:00.004+05:30

Holidays are supposed to be a period of relaxation and enjoyment.....well, almost for everyone...

But the case needn't be so if you have just given your 12th boards and with it the inevitable tag along "the entrance exams".

My niece who has just given her boards is my inspiration for this post. Poor soul wanted to have a blast, back home after a grueling 2 years of preparations..But the reality is that what she is experiencing is far from even enjoying a bit..

There are occasional blasts of course... which happens with the arrival of each result...

Has she scored good? Of course, she has...Then what is the problem u may ask??

The problem lies in the fact that some people score better than her...."She scored 3 percent higher than you..how us this possible????"

Or maybe her score was not such that it didn't place her in the topper's list..

well the drama will continue, for a bit more time I guess..

Well this scenario is nothing new and I feel I am just seeing a rerun of something which happened some years back....the only change being I was on the receiving side...Thank goodness, I got admission in a merit seat, without spending a single penny extra than the top rank holders, that I was able to save my soul...

But what is the point I may ask....I graduated in biochemical engg....

40 percent of my class works in the software field...
The other 40 percent works in the banks...

10 percent of the population in my class, make use of what they studied...and work in the related field..

The rest of the 10 percent are either full time home makers or doing completely non- related jobs.

Me, I am one of the last 10 percent , and is working as an editor...If I had foresight , I would have taken up some other stream...

What is the point in getting a degree in one and working in a completely different field...Education is sure necessary..but is being a doc or an engineer the be all and end all of everything?

Everybody may not have this attitude, but a majority of the population definitely has..

2 years of my 11th and 12th standard were filled with tuitions and entrance preparations...Well but my coleg days were the amazing ever..:):)

They say..its sweet 16 and sweet 17....

But I say,

its sour 16,
sourer 17
and
"ahhh!! what a relief 18"...:)

Hope my niece will be able 2 say.."ahhh!! what a relief"..when she turns 18..:)....

Until for 4 more years, when the job placement starts..:):)

Life sure is tough for young people..:)

chitz....

Faces...faces..n more of them

2011-05-09T00:02:00.003+05:30

The days pass and i encounter many a faces... Some don't even last a fraction of a second in your memory...

n some..years may pass...but just a glimpse would have been enough...for a life time of memories...

There should be some reason..some sort of an energy balance equation types...

I wonder....

chitz...

My Bengali Diaries - A Preface To The End

2011-03-07T10:45:00.003+05:30

Been a long time since I blogged...the reason being nothing other than pure lack of time..guess running after my job has made me creatively numb..:)

Anyways, this is the last but one of my Bengali diaries...I am gonna leave this place very soon.. away to a new place and a new life...

I don't know whether i will miss this place.. .maybe time will tell..But what i know is that I am looking forward to my new destination..with eager and hope....

And now when I am nearing the end of my stay here...I have decided to go para gliding...

Given my inherent fear of heights n the probability of vertigo...i don't know whether it will turn out to be an adventure or misadventure..

Will update, if I live to survive the flight...

chitz...

MAD

2011-01-20T10:21:00.001+05:30

My Bengali Diaries - part 10

2011-01-07T07:20:00.004+05:30

Yet again...and after a long time,i have landed back @ my home in Bengal...and the sudden transition from the comfortable Bangalore weather to the bone chilling winters over here was the hardest part..

But now, settled and finally life is back in track again.....

Well nothing has changed that much over here...except for the new KFC...thanking all my lucky stars..:)

My house is like the way I left is, thanks to my maid (got plans of adopting her,:D)

My doggie "bliss" was missing, but he came back after a few days, only to show me that the remaining part of his muscle less ear has completely off gone by now...n now hes a one eared dog... thanks to another big fight which happened with his enemies...

My calling bell stopped working..so I have hanged a small wind chime kind of bell in its place. Registered a complaint, but in all probability the guy who might had come to repair it,would have gone away when he found that there is no one responding to the calling bell (which is not functional)..believe me, this has happened to my friend....

The place might be the same, but the people around me ..most of them are new faces, thanks to the ongoing "posting in" - " posting out" season, i gotta still find out my neighbor's name...

Enjoying winters...But missing my F.R.I.E.N.D.S badly...the whole set except the 5th DVD has been forcefully given away to my sister (as a result of some serious emotional blackmailing..gotta have more will power,hmph)..the 5th DVD, has been left behind in my DVD player,when I packed up the whole house 6 months ago...at least one is better than nothing....so finding a bit of solace in that...

Welcomed new year in a very nice manner, with a huge party..hope the whole year is as good as the first day....

Nothing else worth writing, except that i can't sleep beyond 7 now..it seriously is a great mystery to me.. why the warm and cozy bed has stopped appealing to me..something is seriously messed up...:(..

Like for now, I am up, having a cup of tea, and typing ..even though my hands are kinda turning numb....so better I stop writing, and try and heat up my hands..:)..

Thats all for now folks,
all in all, life is good....
Might be the magic of the season, but today morning i feel...

my life is perfect...well...almost..:)..:)

chitz...

Achu achu and more achu...

2010-12-31T01:17:00.005+05:30

My dear achu....rather our dearest achu.....

I still remember the day you came 2 our house looking just like a furry white egg......just 11 years back.....

I still remember how you swept us all of your feet with ur poohs and whims...
I still remember all the bubblegums on you...n the pains 2 get rid you of those...
I still remember remember the makeshift bed basket I made 4 u.....

I still remember searching for the perfect name 4 the perfect thing like you....fluffy...snowy..n finally settling upon .....Achu....

I remember how u fought wid me...
I remember how we became the master and shishya of kung fu

I remember how you were always a part of us..

The endless dairy milks , cakes and gulab jamuns we had 2gether..

And now I realize I was lucky 2 b there 2 say gudbye 2 you...
And I was privileged 2 b there @ ur last moments....

even though i cant still believe it....

My dear Achu...there is no reason which I can find for your untimely departure.
And as this year ends..my dear ACHU.........

Hope u r somewhere near us...

LISTENING...HOW MUCH WE ALL LOVE YOU
AND HOW MUCH WE ALL MISS YOU....

always and forever...

chitz.....

My Bengali Diaries :The End Of The Year & Happy New Year!!!!!

2010-12-31T00:22:00.007+05:30

My dear people...who take the pains to read my blog.....

My year of 2010 is coming 2 an end...a very bad year...as far as i cud remember...
A year of loss and of gains very less........in a nutshell......the worst year in my life so far...as I can remember...

Hope the next year is a better one....

Wish you all a very happy 2011

Have a great year ahead!!!!

lots of love....

chitz....

An ode to you winter....

2010-12-27T22:31:00.005+05:30

Winter.....my favorite season of all times...
I wait for you..and i hope you know that....

Each snow flake that falls ;it symbolizes a new hope for me...
Its a possibility unknown....
A hope unsaid,....
An a dream unexplored........

The white around me makes me so happy
The feel of snow in my hands,gives me a pleasure which I have never known...
Takes me to a high I have never been,....

I love the chills you give me.....
I enjoy the warmth you offer me at that old fire place.....

The foggy mornings n early nights....
The dew drops showered from the leaves...

Winter....i love them too...

I love you more bcoz i hope to meet him with with you....
I like the warmth of his arms.....in those cold nights you offer me....'
I like to watch the falling snow..with him beside me...

Winter...i love you for all this and many more...

chitz.....

For You......

2010-12-14T00:25:00.004+05:30

To be loved is a wonderful thing.....

I know you love me a lot....

And yeah.....I know that your silence speaks a thousand words

But believe me darling....

Nothing ever compares to what I feel

when you tell me that you love me...

even if its for an infinite number of times.....

chitz......

Why should I??????

2010-12-12T23:17:00.004+05:30

Why should I care??
Why should I love??
Why should I wait..n lose my sleep over you???

Please temme....Why should I do all these..when you never ever dont!!!!!!!!!

- thoughts of a disgruntled ,frustrated and a very angry soul

The desperate times.....

2010-12-12T21:46:00.004+05:30

The desperate times....

When you just want to say sorry...
But there is no one to listen....

When all you want is to relive those moments..
And all you know is that the sands of time are just flowing away....

And all you see is a life going past in front of you...
A life of crushed dreams and lost hopes.....

And you are no one,but a silent helpless spectator......

And in those times....
life will seem to be nothing .....but a cruel cruel joke.....

chitz....

2010-12-11T01:51:00.003+05:30

She knew he was the wind which brushed past her face...
She could feel him holding her hand when she walked alone....
She could feel him ...kissing her to sleep on those lonely nights...

He didn't have a face..
Their relationship didn't have a name....

But still he was her very own.....
Some one whom she had dreamt into her life....
Someone who would be with her always,forever and an eternity beyond that.....

He was her very own enigma........

chitz.....

A Thought........

2010-12-04T11:53:00.005+05:30

Why the hatred........
why the fights...........

for life is nothing....

but what just disappears in the blink of an eye......

(dedicated to a dear friend who will be missed always...............)

chitz.....

A Conversation....

2010-11-30T11:13:00.004+05:30

Relative 1: hey long time, how r u?
me: fine aunty,how r u?

R1:so where r u now?howz every1 @ home?
me:good..m at so n so place..

R1:so,you work now?
me:yea...

R1:really,I thought you were not working.
me: smiles(in my mind,then y did u ask)

R1:so where do u work?
me:I work for a web portal

R1:huh?what is that?
me:I work as a content developer for a company

R1:huh?u r an engineer rite?
me:yea..but i m not working as one...

R1:oh,so u didn't get any placements?
me:no..i m working as a writer..something different from what I am trained for...

R1:yea...OK,OK...but you should have worked as an engineer...
me:I don't want to,I love my job..I love to write...

R1:they pay you for simply writing?
me:NO,I DO IT FOR CHARITY...

R1:really???
me:noo ..they do pay me for "SIMPLY WRITING?"

R1:hmm..ok..cant fight with fate...not everybody can get a good job..look at you poor thing..what all hopes we had,,one day we all thought you would become a BIG engineer...

me:and do what???build bridges n dams???

R1:noooo,y should engineers do that?contractors do that....We dreamed that you would become a big software engineer

me:I never studied to become a software engineer..my stream was completely different...

R1:oh...so,you didnt do engineering?n your mother told you were?

Me:I did do engineering......but my stream was Biochemical Engineering...

R1:huh...ok..but still you could have worked as an engineer for a good company...

Me:I work for a good company...

R1:but..you are not an engineer..you simply write stuff right?something like a private secretary??

me:Wht???huh???what are you....Oh,pleasee...(in my mind,where did this private secretary come from?)

R1:what all you could have been..a DOCTOR ,an ENGINEER....

anyways,nice to see you....but I tell you,writing and all... seriously....I don't know...

me:aunty,,if you don't know..then y comment??

R1:ah ohk..you were always like this...never did listen to anyone..anyways I gotta go now...

me:Ohk..byeee( thank GOD)

End Of Conversation!!!!!

Notes to self:

Never jump in front of these relatives....Never try to explain things to them....

Why to complicate stuff????
Let Ignoramuses be ignoramuses....:D

chitz....

Some Rainy Memories....

2010-11-28T22:02:00.009+05:30

Disclaimer:Long post again,Didn't mean to bore anybody.But jotting down memories could sometimes make you lose track..and hence I shall please be forgiven .
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Its the last few weeks @ my hometown ........

The rains seem to be in an unrelenting mood over here..much to the wrath and complaints of my mom..who is in a blame mode,blaming the rains for the clothes which can't be dried up properly..blaming the rains for disturbing her shopping sessions n visits to the temple...

That for you folks is my mom, who was only complaining just a few weeks back as of how hot it is,and how it never rains nowadays..:D

But seriously,I am in love with the rains...I don't mind if my clothes dry up a little late..or I don't mind even if I get completely wet when I go outside...

In fact I love to get drenched in the rains... I have many many beautiful memories which I can link with rains..

Memories of a beautiful and fun filled child hood playing in the rains...

I used to wait for my summer vacations to be with my cousins..And I was truly blessed to live in a place where the rain Gods did always tend to show mercy on us almost every time,even when summer was supposed to be at its peak....

The first drop of rains and it was time for us kiddos to go out,for that ritual rain bath....

I should say,that kind of fun I have never have had after that...

Ironically,its been some time that I have spoken with some of my "co rain bathers"(yea,I just invented that phrase)..the people who defined my childhood vacations....due to lack of time,burdens of an adult life..and in some cases,due to a difference of opinion..:)..

Maybe reliving our memories again through those rainy sessions we had,might help us to patch up..should seriously try it out!!

The place I lived until sometime back was a very beautiful one.The experience of a rain over there was priceless.

In summers,when it used to rain, the clouds used to come down ,down so close to the earth that you would feel like you could catch them with your hands.And a drizzle during winters meant snowfall in the hills surrounding us.....

I loved that place..and I wana go back again....but I don't know when....:(

I have had many long walks in the rain...

Most of the times with my friends, and in that case it will be at least 3 people under one umbrella... struggling for a teeny weeny bit of shelter

And sometimes alone..that would be when I am sad..pathetic fallacy I would say.....

Of course,there are memories of many many beautiful days I spent inside my room..doing just nothing,but listening to my favorite music ,enjoying the drizzle outside and just dreaming, dreaming and dreaming on....

Rains again bring memories of those many many bike rides I had ,in which I used to get wet from top to toe..but cared none the less..I still have those bike rides..and I still love it...

And I will never forget the cold coffee during the rains ( yea,cold coffee n rains,i know it is crazy..but what to do I am sometimes a bit crazy)..

Its still raining outside as I jot down this post....

I love everything about the rains....

The feel of the raindrops on my skin....
The sound of the rain against the ground....
The fresh smell of the earth after rains...

And each and every memory of mine associated with rains.....will always remain priceless for me.....

chitz....

A Musical Tag....

2010-11-21T13:17:00.009+05:30

I have been tagged by Vijay....a musical tag that too..lets c how this one will turn out to be...

So here are the rules...

1.Put your itunes,Windows media player etc on shuffle

2.For each question,press the next button to get your answer..

3.You must write that song down no matter how silly it sounds.

This ought 2 b good...so here goes

1.If someone asks you, "are you okay??" you say:

Power of goodbye........ by Madonna....

certainly a weird answer!!!

2.How would you describe yourself??

A little high....by Simon Webbe...

hahaha.....Excatly my condition...i had a wonderful b'day party yesterday..:)

3.What do you like in a guy/girl?

Say You'll be there....by Spice Girls..duh!!!!!!

4.How do you feel today?

I Just want you to know....by Backstreet Boys....

should have made sense if there was something "sensible" following those lines..

5.What is your life's purpose?

Mysterious girl ...by Peter Andre..

Seriously,my life's purpose is not to be a mysterious girl!!!!

6.Whats your motto?

Holiday..by Green Day...

sigh..I wish my life was a loong holiday!!!!

7.What do your friends think of you?

The Hardest Thing..by 98 degrees.....

hmph!!not at all funny!!!!!!

8.What do your parent's think of you?

In Repair...by John Mayer..

yea..they think of me as a defective piece in constant repair..

9.What do you think of often?

Hai Junoon...from the movie newyork,...

I do think abt somethings with junoon...:)

10.What is 2+2

Heaven.....by Bryan Adams..

I never did know tht..:)

11.What do you think of your best friend?

When a man loves a woman....

hahahahahahaha..i love this one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(i don''t know who sung dis song)...

12.What is your life story?

One Love..by U2..

hmph..not my story....

13.What do you want to be when you grow up??

Boulevard of broken dreams...by Green DAY.....

Glad I didn't bcome one...:)

14.What do you think when you see the person you like?

Jiyaa Na Jaaye..by Faakhir

yea jiya na jaaye tumhaare bina..:)

15.What will you dance to at your 4th wedding anniversary?

I love it when we do...by Ronan Keating..

sure,I will dance to that...:D

16.What will they play at your funeral?

Rhythm Divine..by Enrique..

bet enrique never meant that song for a funeral..

17.What is your hobby/interest?

Tum Mile..from the movie Tum Mile....

what is tht supposed to mean??

18.What is your biggest fear?

Crying..by Aerosmith....

haha..certainly very not my biggest fear!!!!

19.What is your biggest secret?

Teri Meri Aaankhon mein sapne hai....by Colonial Cousins...

yea..secret dreams lie deep in my eyes...

20.What do you want right now??

You are not alone...by Michael Jackson....

nothing related to what I want right now....but still a nice one...

21.What do you think of your friends??

Take me to your heart..By MLTR....

love to be close with my close friends..:)

22.When you want to rush to the toilet..what do you think?

Waiting for tonight....by Jennifer Lopez...

haha...if i can wait until tonite..thn y rush???

23.Person you hate the most is in front of you,what will you tell the person?

Take me to your heart..BY MLTR...

fat chance!!!!

24.You have just won a lottery,what will you sing?

Walk away...by westlife...

seriously..walking away from a lottery..i might b a bit crazy,not that much to give up a lottery though..:P

25.What will you post this as?

Yaad piya ki aane lagi..by Falguni Pathak...

figure that out yourself...:0

I loved the tag..i loved the weird answers and the sometimes right answers...

I am not tagging neone in particular..nebody who wants to complete this one is very much welcome to...I would love to read your musical answers...:)

chitz....

Tids and Bits.....

2010-11-19T23:28:00.004+05:30

Warning:Painstakingly long post..nothing is in order...one event has no relation to the previous or succeeding ones...everything is just penned down rather typed down randomly...read at your own risk...

These are just some parts of my life over here.....

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Just 3 months back I lost my Pomeranian of 11 years...getting over it was hard,but finally I got over it...

Well,we miss him..and will always..and the void can never be filled...

I was away from home for about 2 weeks.When I came home,even before I crossed the gate I was greeted by the tiny bow-wows of a very hyperactive white four legged being...

Well,not my new dog..hes my cousin's who is a home stay guest as of now..He is a tiny pomy who goes by the name of Mittu..

My 9 year old German shepherd is afraid to place his legs down for the fear of stamping Mittu who is always running beneath him..

And the rest of us in the house can't place our legs down even if we want to, for the sake of a bruise free pair of legs....yea...the tiny pomy is in the "teething" stage..

If sources are to be believed he has already eaten 4 of his chew toys and is currently on the search for a new and more durable one..

And not much to my amusement,he finds my hands and legs very convenient to bite into...

I love you Mittu.....but please grow up...I need my hands and legs maybe for another some more decades .:)

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November is proving to be a very expensive month for me..

Knowingly or unknowingly from the very first day of this month I started splurging ..And the splurge still continues...

Ironically 75 percent of the people I know,including yours truly was born in November!!!!!..

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Chronologically speaking, I have umpteen number of relatives...

Keeping in mind matters like my well being and of course theirs,I have conveniently forgotten/not tried to get acquainted with/ran away from /snubbed a portion of my very large family...

But there are times,especially times when you are home on a vacation or when you attend a relative's wedding,that you have to run into such characters....characters who talk like they have known you throughout your lifetime,sometimes maybe extending into the previous births also.....

and you stand there wondering..what the hell!!!!!!

I am on a very extended vacation..and believe me I have had more than my share of such characters ...n many a times I wanted to just walk off in the middle of a not so good conversation..but sadly,I am not able to till now...

Hmph..the pains I have to bear to avoid the " how dare you" glares from my mom...:)

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I visited a relative in the hospital today..and I found out that she spends her time in the hospital bed by writing poetry...N more ..she has even published poems...

Should say she is pretty good...guess I should also start stretching my imagination from now...

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I let my hair down and I partied hard yesterday...I should say I had a good time after a really long time....

We had the party at a beach side shack ...

I was born and brought up in the land of beaches..Still I had never found the beach so appealing as I did yesterday......

Maybe it is not just the beach..:D:D

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Got lots more to write...Will update soon...

As of now,I have to go....

until the next post folks...

chitz...

Happy Diwali...

2010-11-04T11:52:00.003+05:30

Its That Time Of Crackers,Lights And Sweets...
Its That Time Of Happiness ,Joy And Celebrations....
Its Diwali........

Wishing Everybody A Very Happy And Prosperous Diwali...

chitz.....

To You,My Dear Friend....

2010-10-24T22:47:00.006+05:30

For the past few weeks my life had been nothing but a straight line.And that line connected my bed and my computer.

Its practically been nothing but alternating sessions of work and rest.....

You sit sometime and work,you get a backache,you go to bed,lie down..fulfilling the duty of bed rest..again bac 2 the computer for work,thn bac 2 bed..

and that kind of summed up my life in my room,post surgery.Going down the stairs was a bit difficult,so the dining hall came to me...:)

and the end result of the "igloo"ing up in my room is that just the work and rest and no play made me a dull,monotonous and unimaginative person..who couldn't even think up of a few lines to jot down in her own very dear space in the virtual world...

even my dreams were so boring,that i guess i was falling asleep even in them...

then i got out of my room ,n out of my house,n back to roaming around..

and how i missed the world outside my room...i only realized it when i got out of my prison of recuperation...

I was happy,very much...But still...something was missing...my soul which appreciated the lighter and beautiful things in life had become numb and dumb....

Out in the world again,i got the chance to meet an old friend,quite unexpectedly...someone whom I hadn't seen for the past 2 years...

Meeting old friends is indeed a joy....If the meeting is unexpected,then the better..

And I say this from the bottom of my heart,

my dear friend.....

thanks for meeting me.....
thanks for letting me relive all those memories.....
thanks for taking me again through the pages of those books we read and loved......
thanks for letting me cry over my losses once again......
thanks for bringing the dead,dusty and long forgotten part inside me back to life....

and finally, thanks for being my friend...:)

Sometimes it just takes a few people and a few instances.......

And now I am back to my old self....

And I am just loving it...:)

chitz....

the past 3 months....n now!!!

2010-10-03T21:29:00.003+05:30

My dear people of blogger ville....I faced the knife last week..and came out, well..a bit hurt but for a better cause...

That was a purely literary statement with no hidden implications...

Speaking normally,I had to undergo a surgery last week...n by the grace of God i m recovering at a very fast rate,than expected by anybody...especially yours truly..:)...

Thanks to my doctor too..:)..shes really an angel sent from heaven above..

N now i am forced to have a month's rest..no,I am not complaining or whining..yes..i have matured and become sensible..:D

When I came to my native 3 months back,me and everyone around me had a very different set of intentions in mind..And now,the tables have turned completely..and I am going back next month ,not acheiving what I intended to, but richer ,fulfilled and more happier than i was..

Yes,I know I am talking in bits and pieces and maybe it doesn't make any sense.But the above said incidents are a summary of my life in the past 3 months..which was scarier than the scariest roller coaster ride I have ever gone through...

n uncertainty was the only constant which prevailed and haunted me like those dementors from harry potter,feeding on my happiness and pushing me into the gravest and deepest pits of sorrow and depression...

n the saying was proved again and again...

Man proposes..God disposes...

Yes,God does dispose...but for a higher cause,the disposal is actually a better proposal put in front of us..but again His ways are quite mysterious and unfathomable by the mere human mind...

And all one requires is to see that silver lining on the edge of the dark cloud which looms above your head..I am happy,because I finally succeeded in finding out that silver lining...

I know I am talking proverbs,sayings and nonsensical stuff..but hey..when one is happy,which I am after a long time..:)..there can't be any complaints..

I was meaning to write about my surgery and look what all I have written...

Anyways..life is back in track almost..will be fully in track in another 2 months when I go back home and see my better half again...

I got a nice family,a job I love...n I am happy...

I say..life is good again...:)

cheers everyone...

chitz...

2010-09-21T21:28:00.002+05:30

Jealousy never did any man any good nor will it do any good....
Can't fathom why people can't stand other people prosper or living happily...

The world is really a stage and everybody is a masked actor...
What lies deep beneath that layers of paint... maybe even the actor is confused...

Is the truth really one or is it a truth of convenience,of hatred and all the ill in the world...

Who can we trust,really?
Is friendship,loyalty and love all an old wives tale....which never was.??

And the truth ..will we ever know what it is????

chitz...

:)

2010-09-16T19:41:00.004+05:30

bad things been happening all around me left,right and center.....either dis or that..

life is giving me so many lemons that i can make pitchers full of lemonades to last for a long time...

n i decided to make those lemonades..:)

First i thought it was an unlucky hat causing all this..even though it was a beautiful one,its shredded and torn to pieces and disposed off now..

Then i thought it was an unlucky ring...couldn't throw away that ring bcoz it cost me some heavy bucks..have deposited it safely somewhere...

mom claims it to be due to the wrong alignment of stars as said by some bejan daruwala

i have had a very memorable one n a half months which is by not any means worth remembering...

i was sulking throughout that my sister said that it will turn out to be my permanent expression

Whatever i ,have left sulking now...
i have moved on...
I have accepted the facts..

n to summarize it I have stopped thinking...:)

n finally i am back to normal and happy..

till the next normal post guys...

chitz...

TAG TIME!!!!

2010-09-02T23:19:00.004+05:30

tagged after a long time..this time courtesy vijay..:)..so here goes 3x7 things about myself....

3 places i would pack my travel bag for

I am very much a hill station kind of a person and not at all a beach or tropical climate person...The first place would be switzerland,my dream destination.Second shimla..been there,loved the place and would want to go back again and again..and last udhampur..most of you might not have heard about this place,it is a small district in the state of jammu and kashmir...have stayed there for a year,would love to go back there again..away from the maddening crowd...serene and peaceful(yea,places in j n k can be peaceful too..:))

3 On-Screen characters i love to watch

1.Gerald Butler in P.S I love you(love him in the movie)
2.Dicaprio in titanic
3.Sharukh Khan in Chak De India

3 moods that describes me the best

Mood changes with situations,there are no 3 specific moods

Happy-in the company of the people i like
Aloof and quiet-if i am forced to b with someone i dont like
Short fused-i guess that can be considered as a mood.Can be considered as an alternative term for crazy..It happens when people tick me off in the wrong way..

n many more...

3 things i always think of doing on a weekend... but never did.. :)

I am stumped here..:D..somehow i end up doing those things i want finally..:)

3 things from my childhood that i cant forget

The first memory from my childhood will be my favourite small cane chair which was fondly named kochu kasera(meaning small chair).The second will be all those happy vacations spent at my native.The third will be Mickey,a wonderful Labrador

3 things i wud never say no to

1.Chocolates

2.Shopping

3.Time out with the people i like..

3 things i cant live without

without considering the living beings,the non-animated stuff would be..my pc with the internet connection,my cell phone and my i pod:)

N yea...i am passing on the tag to my 3 of my favorite bloggers..chanz, atul and sans...rest of my favorite people,you all will be tagged again very soon...:):)

n the rules are ...

- Tag as many u want!

- Link their pages in your tag post

- Post a message / leave a comment screaming that they r tagged

- Mention the person who tagged you in your tag post, and link their blog.

- Write 3 X 7 things about yourself ..

until the next post..

happy tag time people..:)

chitz....

Good bye Achu...

2010-08-30T14:15:00.004+05:30

My doggy achu died today...:(:(:(

m so sad...

i thought i wud have 2 never see dis coz i live away most of the time..

But he chose to say goodbye lying in my hands...

guess that is the better way thn jus a phon call conveying the news

we all will miss u

we all love you achu..u r the best one ever.....

goodbye achu....

chitz...

A bedtime story

2010-08-23T23:36:00.010+05:30

My sis doesn't sleep in her room nowadays.Reason : she is pretty sure that some one is following her and switching on the lights in her room in the middle of the nights.She claims that the paranormal activity might be due 2 a handsome vampire stalking her.Me thinks that it is a twilight overdose and that Edward guy has gotten in2 her head.

Whatever,handsome vampire or not...she has shifted to my room as of now.I don't have any problem with that..but its the excess baggage she brings along which creates a problem.Along with her,comes her soulmates ie 6 pillows.Even if you want to be surrounded by pillows,there can be a maximum of 4.But no,my sister needs 6 pillows.And so in my bed 2 people of medium stature and 9 pillows(yes,the rest 3 are mine:)) sleep now..

Adjustable,I can say...but the problem occurs when my father leaves for work.His work allows him to come home only twice a month.That leaves mom alone for the rest of the time.The stories said by my sis has activated the fear factor in my mom,that she refuses to sleep alone now.And so finally,its 2 medium bulit and 1 well built person along with 12 pillows sleeping on my bed.

Noone is ready to sacrifice their pillows.And thus we all sleep along with our extended family of 12 pillows...one pillow crazy family u might say...

As for my sister's vampire stalker,guess he didnt know she shifted rooms..n i pray he never knows...:D

chitz...

Goodbye....

2010-08-18T19:01:00.002+05:30

Horton said"A person is a person,not matter how small he is"..
And I add,"losing that person might be one of the hardest things you will ever have to face in your life.."

I lost someone very near and dear...
Someone very close to me...
it was unexpected and I was shaken off the track completely

I never thought I would get over it,but now i guess somehow I have manged to...
Its true..time is a real healer...

I know I will never get that person back..and no use of crying over and over..
Tears actually fail to wash those memories away...

Guess should be happy for the unbound joy which filled those moments related with that person...

Now its time to say the final goodbye..

Good bye dear...
I am sure your memories will definitely bring a tear to my eyes always...

Wherever you are I am sure it will be a better place than your previous home and you will be happier than ever...

Know that your life wasn't lost without a cause...

Goodbye...

chitz...

Home Sweet Home....

2010-07-30T10:17:00.003+05:30

I have been traveling throughout for the past 3 years..Stayed many places,met many people...But the feeling of comfort and coziness of my home was missing everywhere...Maybe it is because you are born and brought up at once place that there are so many memories associated with the place that the emotions fail to leave you....Sometimes caught up in the mad run called life we tend to forget about all these and just move on mechanically ..But then comes those moments when you are alone and then all these memories come rushing back to you with a tender touch....

Maybe I am stretching out a little..All I wanted to say is that "There is no place like home and no food like mom's food"...

This is an universal truth...i feel...(statement open to debate..:))

And I am lucky enough to come back and enjoy those precious moments @ my home..I jus relocated again...This time to my home though..:)...Its just a matter of months before I leave again...And all this relocation,shifting and a new job on the way has made me quite busy,leaving me almost null time with my blog....But will update whenever possible..

Until the next post...

Keep reading,keep writing...

chitz....

A train journey......

2010-07-15T00:05:00.011+05:30

The train had half an hour halt at that station...I was trying to read one of those paulo cohelo books..I am not his big fan,since its very difficult for me to understand what he means by saying things in a very complicated manner which could have been said in a much more simpler way...since the book was a gift,and moreover i didn't have anything else to give me company during the rest of the journey(since my co-passenger had asked me to stop my constant chattering and sit in a corner silently and on top of that he was using my i-pod;how arrogant can you get???,and since i have been fed up of observing and counting the rail tracks and their merging and separating patterns ;and since my eyes couldn't take any more of the natural beauty outside) I was stuck up with the book...

suddenly I saw my co-passenger rush out with a bag of half eaten banana fries ,a packet of biscuit and biriyani which yours truly had ordered and hadn't eaten since I lost my hunger after I saw the biriyani.At this point I have to tell you people my co-passenger is none other than my very own and one and only husband.And so his sudden exit like this naturally arose questions in my ever questioning mind.Peeping out of the window was the only option I had since I didn't want my husband to think I was observing him,after he had asked me to stop chattering and sit in a corner..:)...

And then I saw him on the railway tracks..It was an old man,dressed in rags..He was searching for something in the waste lying around and was licking the papers and eating scraps of food thrown out into the tracks...condition-worse than pathetic..

I wasted my lunch,and here is one person searching for food in the trash..

And then I saw my husband..He came up to that old man,talked something to him and gave him the food he had in his hands..The look in the old man's face once he saw the food was not one which can be forgotten..

The train started moving and my husband came in.I returned to my normal position as if nothing had happened..

after sometime

he:"dont you wana know where I went"?
me:smiles..(in my heart.".he talked first..:)...i won")....."i know,i saw.....u r a very nice person,love you!!!"
he:smiles..."love you too"..

Its a good thing to have such people in your life who helps you in being human...

And for me,it was just a small reality check given by GOD to make me realize how blessed i truly am....

Like somebody had said, you can be a successful businessman,a good engineer,a scholar and so on..but what is the use if you are all these and not a good human being??

chitz....

Back to blogging....

2010-07-13T19:08:00.005+05:30

And I am back to blogging after a long time..And man did i miss my web page...Many things have been going on lately....will update you guys about that on a later date..

there is a pic i would like to share with you people at the moment..some months back i had written a post about my nephew saving a small squirrel.. http://cheamanu.blogspot.com/2010/03/boy-who-cares.html

We were all doubtful about the little things survival..but thanks to GOD and my nephew,the little one has grown up 2 be quite a bundle of joy...

Thts him,named fondly as unnikutan indulging in his favourite pasttime of eating...

Haven't seen him after he grew up,but hoping to do very soon...

Thats for now folks...

until the next post...

ciao...

chitz....

life...seriously what is it???

2010-06-10T23:46:00.003+05:30

They say we learn from our mistakes..so that we don't commit them again in the future...
But there are many occasions in life where there is no replay and it is just a one time affair..and then it is quite a waste even if we learned from a mistake/sin we committed at that time in life...

seriously don't you people think there should be more second options in life?more replays and retakes so that even though we won't attain perfection our life can be etched closer to being happy at times??

and they say life has choices....
and they say all that happens happens for the best...

sometimes not being able to correct those mistakes you did...sometimes being just pushed into shallow deep space just like that...

finally just relating everything to another high profile player in everybody's life known as fate...

Fate..luck....

They say work hard and make your life..you work hard and you don't make it,they say its fate,destiny,pre-written..

could there be anything more contradictory than than those feelings which reside in a human mind at the same time....

why is life so mixed up at times???

chitz...

a small tale...

2010-06-03T14:29:00.008+05:30

Disclaimer:the below mentioned is not a universal truth by any chance..

a boy and a girl marries..marriage fixed and arranged by the parents since the boy and girl are of "MARRIAGEABLE AGE" and nice proposals wont come if they r gone past that milestone age...

3 months down the marriage
any good news??....no...

6 months down the marriage
any good news?? ..no....

an year later??
still no good news??..thts bad...

parents to kids...

what is your problem?
do you guys need to see a doc??
after all the puja n everything we did..
how can dis happen...

girl and boy to parents:

we aren't ready for a child..

parents:
what do you mean?god..what will i answer everybody..how will i face my friends now?guess i am not lucky enough to see a grandchild..

intervening public to girl and boy:

no good news till now?anything wrong with you people?you guys should see a doc...atleast think of your parents...

girl and boy to intervening public:

just smiles..we haven't thought of it yet.

a more open girl and boy to the intervening public:

None of your business..:)

Here the important problems as per the parents here are:
they are answerable to the public,as if it was obvious that it was the public who gathered money for the marriage to happen..
everyone of my friends has a grand child ,n my son/daughter has obviously lost the rat race which is a heinous crime...

The important problems as per the intervening public are
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING..

The intervening public obviously do not have any other job!!!!
the actual problems overlooked:
r the couple ready in all the ways for a baby??
do they want a baby of their own now??

persuasion and emotional blackmailing follows to the core...

finally the baby comes...

th baby arrives..everyone is happy...

girl going for work after a month..

everything going smooth...almost...

again a month passes...

MIL/MOM whoever is in charge of the baby to the girl...

u leave for office daily n come back in the evening late..i have to look after the baby for all this time..i am not getting any younger at all..

girl:but i cant get out early..they wont pay me for nothing...and we now have added financial responsibilities with the baby..

MOM/MIL: so who am I? maid???

a maid/aayah arrives soon to take care of the baby..

grandparents to everyone else:

they don't trust us..otherwise why should they keep the maid when we are here??ha,after all we have done for them.....

Intervening public to grandparents:
yeah..too bad..if they knew they would have these problems,y did they go for a baby?too bad..

Believe me,this happens!!!

even though there are many variations and happy endings,this too does happen....

its a weird world right???

:)

chitz.....

And They Ran Away......

2010-05-23T23:55:00.008+05:30

i got a phone call yesterday evening.it was my maid's husband..inquiring whether she was there..i told him she wasn't and end of conversation..

today morning my maid came

me:ur hus had called up yesterday..where were u?
maid:i had a fight him..
me:so?
maid:so i temporarily ran away...
me:what?
maid:yea ..ran away for sometime(in her dialect:mei thodi der keliye bhaag gayi thi)
me:thodi der keliye?(for some time)
she:haanji(yea)

me confused and dumbstruck..n she goes on with her daily chores...

thinking about it later,this is the 2nd instance in a month where i came across someone running away because they had a quarrel with their spouse..

if running is a solution to quarrels,we would see lots of marathon runners n joggers around us always...

some runners run away and fade into the oblivion...
n some runners are followed by other runners who should run faster than the former to bring them back..
n then there are some runners like my maid..who run away for sometime...and when they get bored they go back..

if u run away..do run away..why take the pains of coming back and undoing all your running..why trouble others to run after you??

n for me,if i had ever started running,in 2 years of my married life,don't know how many kilometers i would have covered by now...:D...

chitz....

A Life In Dreams...

2010-05-19T22:56:00.003+05:30

she would be asleep very soon,at least she hoped so..

for her now,nights were the best part of her life..the lonely nights which she once hated..for the sleeplessness and the nightmares..that was history now...now she waited for the day to end..she waited for the time she could go back to sleep...sleep,her best friend..a sleep where she would dream..

A dream in which she was devoid of all her pain...a parallel world she lived in...where she recognized and loved each and every every face she met...the feeling was like a faded hope come into life..like the sweetest memory ever..she dreamt herself into a world of hope,joy and comfort....where she still had that shoulder to cry on..where the ringing of the church ells woke her up every morning..where she sat by the stream for hours...where poetry flowed through her like a sweet melody..

n then she got up again..back into the cruel world..a world which gave her only pain..where for her music,beauty and love had ceased to exist...a struggle for some more hours...lying in the bed again unable to move by her own will and wish..a beautiful mind in a dead body..that was her now....

And there she lay waiting for those dreams to visit her..

To deliver her from the cruel world....

To sleep in one world to wake up into a more beautiful one...

For in her dreams she found reality....

And in her dreams she found her life again.....

chitz...

..................

2010-05-09T16:42:00.004+05:30

I know what you mean when you look deep into my eyes....
I know it is for me that you wait hours and hours, just for a glimpse of me ...
And I know,you will be there for me ,always n always..

Even though you never tell me anything.....

But I wish you just knew....
That my silence always speaks a thousand words....

I wish you just understood...
Those unspoken words which fills the moments between u and me..

And you know I love to walk in the rain...
But I just wish you knew

I like it better , when you walk beside me holding my hand.......

chitz.....

My bengali diaries-part 9..

2010-04-18T14:39:00.003+05:30

well people,I am back to bengal after a long time of almost 2 n a half months..did i miss the place?yeah,i did..but now i miss my home back in kerala too..guess that is my life..always torn between two places....

Nothing much changed over here in the last 2 months except for the complete ban of polythene bags..which i didn't know and as a result of which we (me and my husband),were forced to walk huge cardboard cartons..guess they should have at least issued paper bags....

N winters are gone over here..but it is raining throughout..mornings,afternoons and evenings look almost the same....the night is different as it robs out the very mere existence of light...but i love dis weather..a very pleasant change from the merciless sun in kerala..yup..summers haven't started over here and u can still go on without air conditioners or fans...

And my doggy he is still around and the same..and the exterior of my apartment was repainted during my leave..now everything looks brand new n fresh..

That is all from here right now...
will be back with more bengali stories...

till then...

ciao...

chitz...

WHO AM I????

2010-04-15T22:37:00.006+05:30

There were times he looked into the mirror and asked himself...who are you????
There were times when he looked into a photograph and wondered "is it me"????
And then there was this sleepy moments out of his soul when he felt,'Is that me'???

He thought he knew....
He thought she would level him.....
He thought those happiest moments in life would provide the answer...
He thought the kids would lead him to the better life....
He thought his mother's agony would soothe him...

But what he didn't knew...they were all thoughts...
Soul sprang out of his body again and again...
Life stood still for moments and so on...
And the meaning of his existence...he could never decipher....

And that time when he felt out of his body...
That time he felt detached with himself...
Beyond that it was darkness and more...

The body was lifeless...
And his soul was empty.....

And then he realized that was him......
That is my family.....

But chances were nil and moments were zero....

Can you hear me..he wanted to ask....
I am sorry...he wanted to say...

But all he could here was.."Why did you..we were all there for you"....

I wanna come back..he screamed...
But nobody could hear...
I love you all...he blurted...
But none listened...
I am sorry ...he said...
But nobody cared....

And then again it crept into his thoughts...

What is me??
Where am I??
Who am I??

will I ever know????

The soul moved on unsatisfied and unrelieved....

And that was him...
An answer less journey....

chitz....

Tag n Award

2010-04-12T14:01:00.006+05:30

blogging after almost 2 weeks..n that turned out to be an award..which came along wid a tag..

N the rules....

1. Thank the person who gave it to you.
2. Copy the award and put it on your Blog.
3. List 3 things you love about yourself
4. Post a picture you love (e.g. a person you adore etc.)
5. Tag 5 people you wish to pass this award on to

Thank u chanz for the award...u really r a sweetheart...:)

n 3 things i like about myself..

well..

1.i like the fact that i got a heart which appreciates music n art...

2.my love towards animals..especially doggies..

3.my attitude of letting people live their own life..

N the pic will be..

Thats one doggie who can smile really well..:)

n the 5 i wish t tag will be

1.princess..
2.wolvi
3.Hary
4.Vishal
5.Nj...

Thats for now folks...

ciao..

chitz....

The late rains.......

2010-03-30T10:59:00.007+05:30

The dark clouds loomed largely in the sky.But he knew it wont rain.It has been the same story for the past many weeks.

The earth looked dry without the rain.

The earth ,just like him he thought,barren and dry;barren and dry without her.And she,she was like those dark clouds up in the sky,promising the earth the pleasure and joy of rain.A promise so near,so close,but never attainable.Always giving you hopes so high,but crushing them and breaking you down at the last moment.

And he, always like the earth,waiting desperately for the clouds to rain...waited for her

The ringing of the doorbell woke him up from his thoughts.

"Sorry,I know,I am late and I took a long time in deciding....but I am finally here"..

He couldn't believe that she was standing in front of him..More than that he couldn't believe what he had heard...

She was standing there smiling at him..

The feeling he had was unexplainable...His joy was out of bounds...

"Wont you ask me to come in?It may rain anytime now"..she said

He looked outside..it had already started raining....

He smiled at her....

Suddenly he realized that the best things in life are worth a long wait..

Because She had come finally..And so did the rain.....

chitz...

The boy who cares...

2010-03-22T10:01:00.009+05:30

I have a nephew who is into animals and birds and stuff..when he was a small kid his "helping hand" extended towards animals usually turned out to be a"destructive hand";knowingly or unknowingly.What i am trying to imply is the fact that the birds or animals which he tried to keep wid him didn't have much of a life to live..

Well that is an old story.Now he has grown up to be 15 or so but his liking towards animals and birds still remain.The only difference now being that he is more sensible and the rescue mission of animals he takes up is kinda successful...

3-4 days back he came home with a squirrel that he found from the road..a baby squirrel,which somehow had landed up in the middle of the road..My good Samaritan nephew took up the job of taking the baby squirrel to the vet and then took it home..which cost him his tuition class and earned him some beatings from his teacher..But he is not.. the one to be disheartened..:)Now he takes care of the baby squirrel too well,as per the vet's instructions...it is really nice to see him feeding it and trying to get it burp like a small baby after the feed..:)

Thats the baby squirrel

Thats my nephew feeding his baby...

And that is the home he made..

And thats the recent story of my nephew,whom i have named as the squirrel's foster father..:)

Not many of us have this quality of love towards animals like this..Well my nephew is one of those in that category of genuine animal lovers..I just wish he retains this liking always..And as far as I know him ,i believe he will..

chitz...

What is wrong???

2010-03-20T00:10:00.007+05:30

The kiss was missing..
The scenes jumped just like that..
We had to assume they kissed/or not kissed and connect the unseen dots...

End result:The beauty of the movie and that scene was spoiled...

I still don't understand why even a simple kissing scene is considered offensive in TV nowadays?
What can go wrong by watching a simple kiss?

Enough exposure to the harsh truths and realities of life is provided by news channels and newspapers..

Aren't the movies been given a hard time by the censor board?Y cant the ministry of I&B show a little mercy towards our good old television shows?

The subtitles given for English movies sometimes turn out to be hilarious when they try not to subtitle "offensive language " and substitute it with "diplomatic words"..

Turn on the new channels on a day when the parliament is in session and is there a dearth of words and mannerisms we can miss??

So why the hide and seek in such a trivial matter?

after all it is no secret..people kiss each other..and who dosen't know it??

If so,i wonder what all advertisements would be banned from TV???

Are the Indian audience considered that a immature lot??

And finally there will come a day in the history of Indian TV that ratings such as PG,U/A,A are all gone and every program will be reduced to the status of G...GENERAL VIEWING FOR ALL..

Welcome a non-biased for all ages , exclusive general viewing programmed, UN-REAL TV ERA folks..

And that too very soon i guess.:)

chitz....

sketches again...

2010-03-18T13:10:00.005+05:30

my sketch of the cover page of the book i read recently..:the kite runner..

n this jus came like that...

Some sketches inspired by some photographs i saw..but the final result turned out to be very different..:)

Thats for now folks...

chitz....

A read so good....

2010-03-14T14:31:00.007+05:30

It was a powerful read...and i dont have the strength for a serious read for the time being...

I didn't know much about Afghanistan until I read Khaled Hosseini's books "a thousand splendid suns"...and "the kite runner"..

Until then to me Afghan was a poverty stricken land ,land of osama, at war wid the US...least did i know about its rich heritage and culture,its famous scholars and poets,the very well learned women,true Islam and its preachings and last but not the least the people who owned a proud culture and most of them who are now reduced to nothing but refugees in their own land.....

Many incidents like the blowing up of the centuries old BUDDHA statue,imposing the taliban rules in the name of religion,and public slaughtering in the name of GOD and many such incidents which were read and forgotten just like that kept coming back like an instant replay....

Its heart rendering and thought provoking..The story unfolding through various people and incidents in the books...their sufferings and their yearning for a glimpse of their past life of joy.. the Afghan that was and the Afghan that is...and relationships,its value and its change with time....

This is not a book review or author appraisal or anything..Its just that the book was so powerful an emotional experience ,that i had to let it out of me..

And finally at the end of all the emotional turmoil ,I felt so drained out that whatever I have read till now didn't hold any comparison..

I read a lot of stuff..Some good,some ok,some pure garbage..I sometimes feel on reading the third category of books i have mentioned ,that mayb even i can write a book..provided i can find a publisher..

These are 2 of the best books i have ever read..and I know it will take a lot of time for me to come out of the Hosseni effect now..

and much more to forget Hassan,Amir,Mariam or Laila.......

Crazy ponderings....

2010-03-09T19:03:00.003+05:30

people love..

some continue to....
some break up...n begin and continue to hate each other...
some break up..but they continue to be friends...

and

some break up..but still they continue to love each other...
then why the break up?

just to cause a lot of heart ache...
just to know how good you two were
or
just for the high of living in a fantasy ...

life again is unexplainable...

ART ATTACK..Yet Again!!!

2010-03-04T23:09:00.002+05:30

The girl is just admiring the guitar..not playing it..so the position in which the guitar is held may be overlooked.. :)

chitz...

A JOURNEY

2010-03-03T23:41:00.003+05:30

I was going through my old documents when i found out this entry..I don't have any idea when i wrote it or what made me write all this.....

A December night it was. Winters were already on. It was cold outside, very cold.

But she stood there. She preferred the cold chill outside to the warmth inside.

She stepped out again. It had just started snowing.

She closed her eyes .Just to be with herself.

And she knew from there she would start her journey.

A journey into a world which she only knew.

A journey into a love which she could only feel.

A journey into a memory which was her’s and only her’s.

A journey to a world, a world filled with emotion, mystery and joy.

A journey when she could just be herself.

A journey where she could feel everything.

A journey where all her unspoken and unknown dreams become a reality.

A journey of finding her true dreams.

A journey where the unknown strings of her heart was quietly plucked.

A journey whose end will be seen in her long lost traveler.

The traveler who was her dream.

The traveler who was her mystery.

The traveler who was her joy.

A journey to the traveler.

A journey embarked long back.

A journey never to be completed.

The cold wind continued to caress her face.

The snow was making her feet cold.

And she opened her eyes again..to the real world..

A world were dreams only remain as dreams.

And there she stood..

Waiting again for the moment, when she could embark her mysterious journey…..

To find the traveler of her dreams….

chitz...

A feathery tale...

2010-03-02T14:08:00.006+05:30

There is a chandelier which hangs from the ceiling,a small one. Today while i was going upstairs to my room,I saw a sudden movement in the chandelier area,followed by the fluttering of wings and flying away of 2 birds outside ,through the balcony door which was open..

The birds which were inside for hardly sometime was in the process of building up a nest in the chandelier.A productive use for a space and thing which is rarely used..:)..Guess the birds didn't take much time to find out the place to build their nest because the balcony door was open for barely sometime..and is closed most of the times to prevent unnecessary entries like this..

The marked portion shows a section of the incomplete nest,which will hit the floors very soon..a waste of time and energy of the birds..

What to do?

We cant allow the nest inside as we don't want bird droppings on the heads of our guests every time some comes in..:)

Strange are the ways of the birds also..We had placed pots in the garden so that the birds can perch there..But none of the feathery friends seemed to take interest in it.Instead they preferred encroaching into others property..taking lessons from their homo sapien counterparts I guess..:)

Speaking of birds,i have a nephew who is into birds,animals and stuff.When he was small,he had bought some love-birds .He found them dirty and decided to give them a bath.After the bath he decided to dry them up but it finally led to the death of the birds as he tried to squeeze the birds dry as one does with wet cloth..That is a bird story i will never forget..

we have some love-birds at home..Been there for 10 years or so..Most of them died and many are still surviving..I am against caging of birds,but i was told that if these birds are left in the open they wont live another day to tell the tale of their freedom..

I got a favorite among the birds.He was born with a lame leg and still is so.He lives at the bottom most portion of the cage moving around and trying to climb up the grill sometimes to reach his other friends who are perched up..

And that's our hero..

Many many of the birds with him died and perished.But this guy is still living fine...that is the spirit to live ...

And thus lives on our feathery friends,with no care about the world or worries..happily in their own world..

until the next post...

chitz...

Awards galore..

2010-03-02T12:44:00.004+05:30

thankx vijay for the award.....

Just like the donor ,i am also breaking some rules and making my own..:)

1.Show off the award in your blog...

2.Share the love by giving the award to any number of people you like,be it one or 100...

I would now like to give vijay a small token of my love for his blog..:)

aND now i am presenting "i love your blog" award to satish..for his candid movie reviews..:)

and to sans who writes very well,but who is missing for smtime now.hope she comes bac to reclaim her award soon..:)

Keep blogging everybody...cheers!!!

Life...

2010-02-26T23:17:00.004+05:30

Life is a matter of moments..those few moments which you want to live again and again....Those few moments which you wish you could freeze in time forever..

Life is a matter of people..Those few people who make your life worth living..those few people whose life you make worth living...

But sometimes,we do not realize those moments and people are just passing by us..
The hassles of daily life makes us forget all those..
In search of happiness we ignore the simple joys life offers us...

And there comes that moment in life when you miss them..
Those moments and people whom you ignored...
Those whom you took for granted..
Those whom you failed to appreciate...
And those gifts of life you failed to recognize.....

And that's when you wish..

if only......

chitz....

Some random thoughts..

2010-02-25T11:11:00.015+05:30

Warning:This is a kind of lengthy and meaningless post.Please do read and get bored at your own risk.Don't blame me,I have warned you before hand..

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From the time I could remember, mornings started with a hot cup of tea from my mother.I was very much addicted to tea ,that the absence of that morning dose,used to make me nauseous .And that was the only cup of tea I used to have the whole day..evening tea was a passe for me,I used to prefer snacks than having tea again..

When I joined for engineering,I was accommodated in a hostel.And they say college molds you in and out,for one it changed my tea-addiction in the morning.I preferred vomiting and staying hungry in the morning,rather than having the tea over there,the term "tea" is actually being a misnomer in this case.there used to be milk,sugar(and sometimes no sugar) and tea-powder as namesake,and there used to be water and lots and lots of it..that was the concoction i used to get in my hostel canteen.And if my mind used to crave for any form of tea in the morning and I go down to the mess ,the concoction would have been gotten over by then.And that put an end to my tea- drinking habits in the morning.

After college and into marriage I became a coffee person.I learnt to make the "beaten" type coffee and man,how I loved it...coffee,whether hot,cold or flavored..I loved it...and I even used to have cold coffee during winters and rains..that much became my addiction towards it..

And it was until a month back...

Now back home,I left coffee and now i have started the new trend called green tea..

Sure it doesn't taste anything like tea,but more like an ayurvedic medicine...
Sure,it takes time for you to let the concoction down through your throat..

But they say. it helps in
1.weight loss,.(goood)
2.and takes care of all other health stuff(the cover showed many,but I was only interested in the weight loss point..not that I have much weight to lose but as they say,prevention is better than cure :))..

And now after 25 years of living in this planet and after a series of tea and coffee experimentations I have finally turned a health freak and is now sipping down two cups of green tea in a day...:)

I don't know how long this addiction will last,because until now it is only a week old...

Time will tell...

until then..green tea rules!!!!
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I bought 2 books,and i finished reading one yesterday..it took me one whole week to finish a book..Not that it was that big,it was just 240 pages..but it was boring...

"Anything for you maa'm"..the title made me pick up the book...and now I repent my decision..

the only solace i have is it was a second hand one..

And now gotta embark upon the second book,one by Jhumpa lahriri

Hope it turns out good...

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Guitar was a fantasy for me..and this time I got one..I felt so happy to hold my guitar in my own hands..it was like a long time dream come true..And Ii am now the proud owner of a guitar...

I started taking some online classes as I am tied up with some other job currently, to go for regular classes..but more than striking the right chords,i have been striking the wrong ones..now I have to search for a good teacher who fits into my time and schedule...

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Tendulkar hit a double -ton yesterday..and ,am I happy...when I almost lose interest in the game,sachin does his magic again....

Hail tendulkar!!!!
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It is gona be a month tomorrow since me and my BBH(better bitter half) have been staying apart..And now i miss him so much that i have gone back to the times of us dating and staying away..I am downloading all those mushy mushy..i love you and i miss you songs..which inturn is giving my i-pod a hard time..as it is on most of the times..Don't know what is the point in doing so,bt i guess its all a state of mind..

Wish this phase passes off soon..:(
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That's all scribbling for the time....

until the next scribbling ...

love you all who sat through the read..:)

chitz....

why??

2010-02-23T13:10:00.008+05:30

3 years back..late one night,a phone-call woke up all of us in the house..and left us not sleeping that day and the following few days..the phone-call conveyed the death of a relative,the death which was actually a suicide..a young man with wife and two kids..why he did so, it is a secret between him and god even today...

yesterday,again i came upon a similar story and a similar situation..a man again leaving behind his wife and little kids..

One day you are just a kid,suddenly you realize you are no more one and you are a grown up..You marry,u have a family and life goes on,with its share of happiness and sorrows..and one -day all of a sudden you just leave all your loved ones and go away just like that,to a place where there is a no-return option

Why does a person do so??

What makes a person take the decision,and what gives him the courage to do so,is in-comprehensible to me..maybe they have had problems..but who doesn't have problems..maybe a second thought,may b an open talk might have turned around things the other way..

I guess everything is a thing of"mind over mater"..and "matter over mind"..which overrides the other ,decides where you are heading to..

Sometimes i feel the ways of God are funny..people who have a zest for life and who haven't had lived to their full are called back by him so soon..and then he creates some,who just end everything by their own..ironical..isn't it??

Whatever said and done,death creates a void which can never be filled..and all we can do is share the sorrow of the ailing family..who are left behind with unknown answers and most of them with an unsure future....

And again..why ??why did it happen??....

we are clueless and groping in the dark...

And this is one of those situations when life doesn't give you a second chance..

chitz...

OLD is definitely GOLD!!!

2010-02-16T18:54:00.007+05:30

Old age is said to be a second childhood..where you will be free from all responsibilities and will be taken care of well, as you were during your childhood...Spending your retired life and old age peacefully with your kids and grand kids...that is the perfect dream!!!

For many it remains a dream..I came across an old lady,bedridden and just with a home nurse to look after her,who more than nursing her seems to boss her..her kids ,though they stay nearby have no time for their mother..It might be true in the daily run of life,time is an important constraint....but i don't think taking a few minutes off from a day,to visit their ailing mother is an impossible task..

I have read somewhere this old folktale where the king of a place decided that all old people are definitely useless and shud be abandoned in a far away mountain once they reach a certain age.two sons decide to keep their parents hidden away in the basement as they loved them so much to abandon them.Time went by and great disasters which were about to fall on the country was averted by the timely advice of the old couple,from whom the messages wee passed on to the king by thier sons.When the king finally came to know the truth about the couple,he realized his mistake and banished his law...

That was an example of pearls of wisdom,wisdom which was acquired with age,with experience...Like they say..."old is gold"..

If it was not for the wisdom part also,let your elders be a little less wise and non-contributing to the family needs,how can one justify the act of puting their parents or elders in an old-age home ,and treating them as if they are a burden?

Its like cutting off your roots and your reason for existence and throwing them away...

I can't understand why don't such people understand the emotions and sentiments of their parents..How will it feel,when you are abandoned by people for whom you have loved and lived your entire life for??

And one thing which surely those kind of people do not understand is

"What goes around...surely does come around!!.....

Tough luck for them ,that they do not realise that their turn to be old ,is just around the corner.....

And such people should realize,It is just a good heart and some good thoughts which you need,to make your elder's later years in life the best years of their life....

chitz....

ART ATTACK...

2010-02-09T13:51:00.003+05:30

AGAIN!!!

chitz..

Going artsy...

2010-02-07T23:07:00.008+05:30

being alone at my home,triggers my artistic bone i think..so far,it has been 2 glass paintings and 2 charcoal sketches...will upload the glass paintings later as they have been given for framing..so here goes my first artistic experiments in 2010....

I am a momentary artist and no professional and hence all the irregularities and abnormalities shall be kindly forgiven..:)

chitz....

My current grievances...

2010-02-02T22:07:00.007+05:30

The anniversary was planned perfectly..nothing could seem to spoil it..but then,the plans were not meant to be..and in just a matter of 5 days,everything got called off..the anniversary celebrations were not meant to be..A definite thumbs down on your mood quotient.

You trusted somebody as a true friend.And whenever a help was asked promptly it was done by you..But one fine day,you asked for a help..not once but twice or thrice and then you find that the "yes i will definitely do it" from the other side was just a saying which never was put into application..and the lame excuses which followed..that is not something which will make you feel happy and good,is it?

You were sure of getting something,and lo and behold someone who was nowhere in the scene for a loong time walk away with all the accolades which you were sure was meant for you..not good again..

A new dress worn only once,goes missing just like tat from the place it was put for drying..And only your dress goes missing and all the others are safe and sound..certainly not good..

You love somebody and want to be with them.But a twist of fate forbids you from meeting that person for not one,not two ,but three straight months..definitely a nail in the coffin!!!

And there you go,definitely not happy..more frustrated..and surely asking why god why???

I know it has been loong since i blogged.And i seriously did not want to start a new month with this "grievances and hate post "..

But the above mentioned is a bit of which has been happening in my life in the past two weeks.

One day i woke up to a chilly morning and the next thing i know,I am in a hot and sweaty place..

An anniversary which is going to be not much celebrated since I am alone ,A friend who suddenly did not seem much of one,a well awaited "something" not in hand,the sudden disappearance of my new dress,and finally me being away from my husband for three looong months...

I definitely have all the right to sulk all the way..and I am very well doing so!!!!

And i turned out to be the "INCREDIBLE SULK " ..

So loong folks...
until the next normal post...

chitz....

My bengali diaries-part 8

2010-01-18T07:20:00.005+05:30

I was walking down the road in the afternoon,quite happily basking in the sun which shows itself once in a while nowadays.Suddenly I came to a sudden halt.There was this "crossing " of the road going on.Not of humans ,but of monkeys.First I thought it was a single one.Then a family of them.All of a sudden i felt like it was a picnic of the whole monkey village...There were lots of them!!!

I am not living in a jungle,in a zoo or any place close by.Over here,This was my first experience of these many characters at such close quarters outside a zoo.Naturally i was astonished.. and afraid,not to mention..

Where did they appear all of a sudden..i have no idea..but the repercussions of their arrival were well to be seen..

My neighbor lazily woke up at 10 one Sunday morning,only to find her milk packet in shreds and milk all over..clothes which are hung outside for drying are going missing and later found in bits and pieces..The dogs in the surroundings,have been all reduced to the status of docile lambs:following the beating up by monkeys.

Some trained and domesticated langurs (black tall monkeys)were brought to chase away the monkeys.The monkeys took to their heels at the sight of the langurs.Thus they chased away monkeys with monkeys.And finally we are devoid of the "M company"..and the almost 2 day seige by the monkeys came to an end!!

(not a seige it was,but the drama seems to spice things up..:) )

First horror stories about snakes and the sight of a sheded snake skin..Now monkeys..I should say,The East is a pretty wild place..

And on other notes..winters are on full form and never seem to end..its almost going to be 3 months now...and now the mind of mine has started craving for a bit less cold of a weather...

its true,you can't have too much of a good thing also...

until the next post folks..

ciao...

chitz....

Thoughtful ads...

2010-01-08T14:01:00.006+05:30

A friend mailed me these pics....Thought of sharing it..

Thankx arvi for sharing them with me...

These pics really do speak more than a thousand words...don't they??

chitz....

The Parting Ways....

2010-01-06T23:50:00.010+05:30

He...

Her eyes were intoxicating.More than the drink in his hand.The most beautiful he had ever seen.He just kept on staring ,staring and staring..What else could he do,for he was helpless.A drink in his hand,and a smile in his face,that was what he was now.Some where,somehow,some place,he had hoped to meet her.But this was the least expected of places.She was still the same to him,nothing less than perfect.He wanted to,very much wanted to,hug her and tell her how much ever he loved her still.But,he wondered whether she had noticed him till then.Everything came back to him suddenly.The meeting,the courtship, the breakup and the heart break which followed the break-up.He wondered again if she had seen him?He wondered again,did she love him still?He didn't think so.But deep in his mind,he wished so.And then came the moment,she looked up,and yeah,she saw him.And there she stood staring back at him.What did her eyes convey to him??Was the emotion filled with joy,sorrow or betrayal.What was she trying to say to him?As usual,he stood there.Having no clue of her emotions or feelings,unsure of what she was trying to tell him.And all of a sudden he knew,why she went away from him,why those promises were broken,and why that goodbye had to be said.And he stood there again,unable to do anything..but stare into those beautiful,big black eyes...

She turned and started walking away,
And for him,life went back to the drink which was awaiting him...

She...

She walked into that place with her friend.She disliked the place more than anything else in he world.It held for her memories.Memories she tried very hard to erase from her mind,but which failed to leave her at any cost.She looked up,and there he was.In their usual place,minus her.Images from the past,flashed before her eyes.He still was the same.The same unruly hair,the same bratish look and the same stare that penetrated deep into her heart.Did he still love her?Will he forgive her for her immature behavior?Will he forgive her for walking out on him,when he was the most confused?Will he ever understand her??She looked at him,hoping for a smile in return.But nothing happened.And then she knew,she was nowhere in his life.She realized he had said good bye to her forever..

Dejected ,she turned around and walked away....
To another life,which she wished she could build up someday without his memories...

And here they were ,saying goodbye to each other,because of their unspoken and misunderstood perspectives and thoughts...

And little did they know,a look back would have avoided the parting ways.....

chitz.....

AWARD CEREMONY!!!!

2010-01-06T23:16:00.002+05:30

short n sweet..

I have been awarded by rohit...thankx buddy...n here i go awarding my top 2 followers which i think are the best critics of my work...

the rest of the following fellow bloggers,u all are gr8..but This award is for the best follower..legally i can award only one,but here i am awarding 2 ..but seriously,you all rock..!!!!

Recievers of award..plz do award ur deserving followes...:D

Love you all..
until the next post...

chitz....

TAG TIME...

2010-01-04T21:33:00.003+05:30

Its tag time,after a loong time..dis time tagged by rohit....so here goes,

1. What is your current obsession?

Decorating and re-decorating my home..

2. What are you wearing today?

Ha ha..Layers of clothing..thankx to the winter..thermals,t-shirt n jeans,sweater,jacket,socks and a cap..:)

3. What’s for dinner?

Had my dinner..wai-wai noodles(much better thn maggi) n mustard kasundi(much better thn ketchup)..the best discovery from the east so far..

4. What’s the last thing you bought?

The last thing I actually bought will be a bottle of thumps-up..

5. What are you listening to right now?

Eddie Murphy's voice from I-spy..(coming frm the tv)..

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?

A regular and interesting blogger

7.If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Shimla..(I am in love wid dis place)

8.One thing you wanna change about yourself ?

My temper-tantrums..everybody around me will also want tht..:)

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

I will go back to Udhampur,visit the house i stayed over there..relive my memories,see the snow at natha-top n thn will come back..

10. Which language do you want to learn?

In the process of learning german..always getting stuck midway though..

11. What’s your favourite quote?

Live and let others live peacefully..

12 .would u cook for me?

HA,ha..rohit you are welcome to have lunch and dinner at my place anyday..breakfast won't be available.. :)

13. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?

Give them a dose of their own medicine,Then there wont be any need to avoid them..they will avoid you.. :)

14.What are you afraid of the most?

If it is of phobias,I am acrophobic..

15.Who do you want to meet right now?

My friend from college

16.What is your favourite colour?

There is skyblue,then there is pink..

17.Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.

I am born stylish..I don't need to do anything..sorry folks.. :P

18.What is your dream job?

To become a well-acknowledged writer..

19.What’s your favorite magazine?

As of now,nothing..since accesibility is less..

20.If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?

Everything that catches my eye in the mall..I am a shopoholic

21.What do you consider a fashion faux pas?

For me it is black leather pants..works for Indiana Jones maybe..not anyone else i know of

22.Who according to you is the most over-rated writer?

Paulo-Cohelo..Alchemist was enough for me..:)

23.What brings a smile on your face instantly?

Plesant surprises..

24.A word that you say a lot?

Oh,seriously!!!

25. What kind of haircut do you prefer?

I like my current one with fringes and layers and its got length too..

26.What are you going to do after this?

Maybe sleep

27.What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?

Write my blog,listen to music that will make me more depressed..yup thts what i do..:)

28.What makes you go wild?

Wild??For one seeing my well -arranged room being clutterd by my hubby makes me wild with anger..

29.What are your favourite movies?

"PS I Love You" I can name..and there are lots lots more

30.What inspires you?

Inspiration is derieved from myself,which inturn depends on my mood which depends on my surroundings,situations and conditions.. :)

31.What do your friends call you most commonly?

Chithi,chitz..

32. Would you prefer coffee or tea?

coffee

33. Which other blogs do you love visiting?

All those I follow..

34.Favorite Dessert/Sweet?

Rasgulla and anything made out of chocolate or which has chocolate in it..

35.How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?

3.

36. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

With all these layers of clothing I look like a walking Igloo

37.Favorite Season?

Winter

38.One wish that you really want to see it come true?

Cn't say,maybe it won't come true..:P

39. What breaks your heart?

Lack of attention by people I love..

And its over...

I am taking the liberty of breaking the rule...:)

But I answered all the questions..

I haven't added anything of my own or not gona tag neone in specific..

As usual everyone and any1 who is interested can complete dis..:)

Until the next post folks..

ciao..

chitz..

My Baby You...

2010-01-03T23:26:00.008+05:30

My baby,you are my life..
You are the most precious one ..
You are the one I have been waiting for throughout..
I will love you,like no one can ever do..
I will care for you like no-one can ever do..
And I will give up anything for you..
Just so that,you will be happy...

These are the thoughts..the thoughts of a mother,about her baby..

Mostly...yeah,I am forced to say "mostly"..

Some babies are denied the chance to experience the life outside the mother's womb.And their short stint with life ends there itself.

I was asked to write an article about female-foeticide,and research revealed some gruesome facts.

Reasons?The causes?The implications?The preventive measures?

I am not going to present the details of my research before you...

It is a story which has been told again and again and a battle which has been fought over and over..

I didn't read much about male-foeticide..But definitely there will be cases of pregnancy termination,without even knowledge of the sex ..

Reasons for termination of pregnancy?

Medical-acceptable
Other issues(Cant afford a baby,Not ready for a baby)-Questionable and debatable.
Because the foetus turned out to be a female??-Un-exceptable in every sense of the word...

If they keep on terminating female births,I wonder how do those people plan to survive and carry forward?Interesting it will be,to know their thoughts..

Some people pray,try do everything they can possibly do to have a baby.While some just say "no way",to another life to be born into the world..Ironical isn't it?

And then there are the lucky ones,who can really look into the eyes of their baby and say..

"Oh,my baby you..do you know how much I love you"....

And I wish,every baby is given a chance to hear this beautiful lullaby....

chitz....

Image courtsey: http://www.gnldcontent.com/omega3/US/images/BabyAndMother.jpg

Looking back....

2009-12-31T10:56:00.007+05:30

Today we say good-bye to another year..and welcome a new one..Don't know about the rest of you all,but for me,the year was a pretty fast one..One day you know it is January 01 and the next thing you know ,it is December 31..

How was this year for me?it was a mixture of emotions and events.

For starters i began blogging very frequently ..which i m continuing till the last day of the month..Blogging helped me discover my passion and inclination to write,that it helped me chose a career path..quite a deviating path from the one i was aiming and was trying to travel the whole my life..

I celebrated my first wedding anniversary...didn't know how a year flew by...Its seems like a fairytale throughout and I wish it continues so always..

Back home ,I had the best vacation in my life..Met up with my neice,whom i haven't had seen in around 2 yrs..I vacationed crazy,shopped crazy..and enjoyed full-time..it was like back to my college days..

Then i shifted my base ,leaving behind all the memories of kashmir..to a new place..which i hated in the beginning,but which now ,i am completely used to and have made my home(period)...

I found Pogo,then gave away Pogo(damn,shifting)..I found Bliss..he is still with us..(both of them,being doggies)..

I made up wid a close friend of mine,no quarrels ..no worries..the 2 yr long duel came to an end...one less grudge to carry forward to the nxt year...(not that i have many)

And life went on and on..It is still going on and on... For me 2009 has heen a mixture of love,goodbyes,new friends,sugar and spice and everything nice..and sometimes not that nice..

And for the new year resolutions I made last year,according to my blog post

http://cheamanu.blogspot.com/2008/12/my-new-yr-resolutions.html

1.will try to control my tongue n temper..
2.will try not to sleep after 9 in the morning
3.will try not to skip any meal of the day..
4.will try to keep up the above resolutions

Thank God,I at least had a post to remember what my resolutions were,for I have successfully broken the 3 them.. second one,being broken only on weekends.,thankx to my job,german classes and my dance,

And for the rest of the broken resolutions,I am re-resoluting them this year..Lets see.. :)

I don't know what the new year has in store for me..And not knowing what tommorow has in store for us,is I believe what is called the charm of life..

So,here I am raising a toast to a wonderful year ahead for all of you.

Happy New Year Folks....

chitz....

A Day Out..Some Pictures....

2009-12-28T23:17:00.023+05:30

Christmas is gone n new year is expected..in short it is holiday time..in this short span of time i get,i wouldn't miss a chance to roam around..and i did roam around..here are some pics of my day of exploration of my beautiful neighborhood..

yup..it is scenery all the way..i live in a place surrounded by scenic beauty..

the lake..one of the many..

The monastery in the hills..there are lots of Buddhist monks around the place i live ..the first monastery i visited was in coorg..dis is the 2nd one..it was peaceful,quiet and serene..couldn't get any inside pics as photography was prohibited...

The welcome board to the tea-estates...i like the names..singbulli and tingling...:D

China??Someone suggested it might be the variety of tea..the only explanation..

tea and tea all around...ne one for a cup??

"we need gorkhaland" slogans everywhere..Why divide and rule,i ask??

They said it was Tuph-ku..the local delicacy..for me,it was bland noodles and chicken in semi-soup-solid form..

The cold weather started setting in very very very early..

And finally the sun ready to go down,around 3.30..its an early bed-time for him nowadays...

That was an overall view of my surroundings...Its winter and it is getting very cold here during the nights..mornings are pleasant though..

But the last winters,in the heavenly state of jammu n kashmir ,the mornings were foggy and misty and cold...the best and the coldest ever...its nostalgic and i am reposting some pics again from my old post:..

My courtyard ,i guess around 1o in the morning...

Man,do i miss the J n K winters..Sob.. :(

original link to dis pics:http://cheamanu.blogspot.com/2008/12/merry-xmas-everyone.htm l

Thats all for now folks..

until the next post..
keep smiling and njoy the last few days of the yr..

chitz....

SomeThoughts On A Cold Night..

2009-12-23T23:40:00.007+05:30

I am just back from a stroll through the campus..and believe me ,it was very cold..cold that the last thing you would have wanted to do,will be taking a stroll at a time like this..But yeah,I chose to take the stroll..

It was beautiful..The streetlights were on..You could see the mist settling in the shadows of the light..

It reminded me of a dream which I had loong loong back,and which is still etched very brightly into my memory...

It was beautiful..I felt happy..I got a feeling that Xmas is here,even though there are no trees,carols or Xmas cakes this time around...And mostly I was happy,because it was winter..My favorite season of the year....Winters to me are filled with santa,christmas and some foggy memories which remains undeciphered....

The thoughts which flow and the feelings that arise,the emotions that couldn't be expressed just through words....winters gives me a mixture of all this..The cold weather might make my logical brain go dumb,but it sure awakes the dreamy and mysterious part of my think- tank...

I remember the last christmas eve..After a movie called "Holidays"..I was walking in the lawn of my garden...the drizzle was still on..The chill was awesome..And then there was the peace,calm and the feeling of a high and joy I felt ...And I was there enjoying every bit of that moment..Wishing that the moment dosen't pass by..and praying every moment in my life remains a beautiful as this..

Santa must have granted my wish,and I do believe in SANTA..hes a childhood enigma and I dont wana be a grown up this time to disown him completely..bcoz for me,without santa,the charm of the season is completely lost....

I might be getting carried away..So better I stop now..I want to wish all my readers a very very merry xmas and a equally prosperous and fulfilling new year..:)

May santa fulfill all your wishes...

Until the next post folks..
keep smiling..

chitz.......

A year......

2009-12-21T12:21:00.004+05:30

A year it has been,and that too how quick...

Sometime this day,last year a bored mind decided to etch her impression in the virtual space..,
Its been a year since i started jotting down my thoughts in my small space in the cyber world...

I thank all you readers for visiting and helping my blog grow through your valuable comments...

And now its time for cakes and balloons and the birthday celebrations..

And I raise a toast to my blog on her first birthday(i am female,and hence will b my blog.....)

And I pray and wish I don't run out of ideas and thoughts ,so that you will have many many more days like dis to come.....

Until the next post folks...

Keep smiling

cheers

chitz.....

Alone ......

2009-12-20T00:40:00.011+05:30

The path was the same.The cold blowing breeze in her face was the same.The sun peeping through the trees was the same.The people were the same.The faces were the same.The gestures were the same.

But life was different now....

The day came with a different tone.The evenings seemed to have lost their charm.The nights were mostly sleepless.

Many a night she lay awake.Staring up at nothing at all.Searching for answers which she knew she would never ever get.The other side of the bed was painfully empty.She missed those comforting hugs in the warmth of which she would never sleep again.The tears flowed without her knowing.

She was surrounded by people..
But still she was lost..
She was always in the crowd..
But still she was alone..
Many were there for her always..
But she was blind to all of them..
She was deaf to all of them..

All because of a beautiful dream..
A beautiful dream which she had lived..
A beautiful dream which was lost..
A beautiful dream which was shattered..

The dream which was broken into pieces...
forever and ever...

And the dream being him....

She felt alone..
She felt shattered..
She felt hurt and bruised..
More than anything,she wanted him..
For she knew,this life was for them to fight together..
For she knew,without him,she was nothing...

They said life would move on...
They said forgetfulness was the best boon to mankind..

But for her, life had ended,as she had known it...

Image courtesy: www.sodahead.com

My bengali diaries-part 7

2009-12-17T16:07:00.003+05:30

Its being long since I updated my adventures and misadventures in this land....

Life here is getting more and more hectic...
The good part:Winters are here..
The bad part:No time to enjoy the beautiful season..

Yes,I am a very busy soul,..I had been chosen to perform salsa(along with a partner of course)..And now after a 6 day crash-course in salsa,I am ready to show the world,my version of salsa,which i sometimes feel,resembles kathak(thankx to my classical training)...

But since my trainer has given me a double thumbs-up,I feel that i must seriously be good at this..otherwise,they would not have chosen my name for nothing(bragging folks,I am bragging!!!)

The good part about the dance-I am very fit and very much body-flexible nowadays,
The bad part-No time for my writing jobs,as a result of which I am forced to hear bulls***,from my clients..Not all of them,just a few hard and fast disciplinarians,who fail to understand the cultural side of their article provider,namely me..

And thus goes on life,a mixture of timings and non-timings.

The worst part of this mad house run over here is that,the two people (including me) living under the same roof,have very little time for each other...

karma,karma!!!!!

And in this small gap i got,I updated my dear blog..gotta run now...another back-breaking,hip-hustling dance session to begin soon..

So long folks...
till the next post:
keep smiling

chitz....

PS:My dance performance is on saturday..Please do pray for me and wish me luck..:)

A Surprise Meeting!!!

2009-12-10T00:54:00.009+05:30

Disclaimer:The below mentioned incident is real and all the characters are alive and kicking as of this very moment.I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings.But the below mentioned are completely my thoughts about the incident and I don't think there is a better place to voice it out ,other than my blog..

It was around four in the evening.A four which looked like an 8 in the night,thanks to the ongoing winter.I was out shopping.The privileged and much awaited weekend shopping and roaming around the city and its only mall..which is a good 15 km from the place where i stay..

I picked up a pair of jeans and went to try out when I found out the trial room was full.Waiting is something which I don't like to,but here i did not have any other option.I was happy when I heard one of the doors unlatching and a lady exiting..I was about to enter the trial room,when i was stopped by this heavily accented voice..

"Hey C..how r u?"

Surprised,I turned around.There stood in front of me a lady.Brown hair,black goggles ,A t-shirt , a three fourth and sneakers.

The Instant thoughts through mind were like

A three fourth and no sweater in this weather,which was below 10 degrees???Maybe she changed the sweater in the trial room,but still three-fourths?,isn't she cold?

Black goggles,shh..wrong place ,wrong time..But then maybe she is blind..no,chances of that are nil.

Heavy accent,golden brown hair..foreigner?if so,with her skin..she looked like a burnt one..no,an NRI gone wild,yup..that is it.

Lets call her A n me C

A:y r u surprised,u didn't recognize me??
C:m sorry,but no..
A:oh C,i am A..The one who studied with you ..we met last 4 yrs back..remember?

I was literally surprised.Because if she was the person ,she was claiming to be,she had undergone a complete metamorphosis of her outer self.

C:Oh you,how r u?n how come u r here?

Seems like A got married and is settled in London.She is home for vacations and is on her way to visit Darjeeling..

That explains it..i thought..

After exchanging pleasantries,n whn she was abt to say bye..i coudnt help but asking...

"Why three fourths..arent u feeling cold in this weather?"

A:No girlie,u should come to London..I feel its hot over here..Look at you all covered and bundled up in sweaters ..

C:"I am sorry I was not born in London".(you ice princess)..the bracketed portion being said in my mind.

A:ok,thn bye..cya..surprised..cin you..n happy too,..

C:same here,bye..

End of conversation..

Where I live,the chances of seeing a known face from the other phase of my life is almost nil.And if I see one,I will be really surprised.

today..I was surprised..more than seeing her,by the way she looked..

The last time I saw her,she was a sober girl..the maximum heights of fashion she would attempt would have been a jeans and a long kurti.

But today..she has completely changed.

Throughout the conversation she was staring at me,through her black goggles..which again made me think,y isn't she removing them..maybe she has sore eyes..

I am not criticizing her modern way of dressing,which i completely support and follow..
To me, a jeans and a t-shirt is the most comfortable and decent clothing,ever invented by man!!
A sari will be my last option any day,even though i love the wonder known as "sari"

I am not a fashion guru and I am out giving out any gyaan.
But I feel there are some common grounds where any human being in their senses will finally reach to..
Because there are things you wear,and things you wear that suit you,and wearing those things which suit you at the proper place and time.

There is a commonly used term- YO!!!..translated to cool,chik,hep,hip-hop and all the similar meaning terms..

Then there is a Malayalm word -AIYO!!..translated to surprised..mostly not in the positive sense but the other way round..something which can be substituted for OH MY GOD!!(in the thumbs down manner ,that too)..

My friend tried to become a YO!!
But she ended up becoming an AIYO!!

And that folks,was my brush with "FASHION TURNED FREAKY"...

And mostly she irked me with her London statement,which prompted me to make her a part of my blog and present her before you wonderful readers.. :)

until the next post folks..

keep smiling..

ciao..

chitz...

What a pic!!!

2009-12-07T18:50:00.002+05:30

A pic which i got in a mail..

This is a transportation device of a school in Delhi...

Seriously,children or live-stock???

A day close to the wild....

2009-12-06T14:44:00.021+05:30

This has been one,I wanted to post almost a month back,when i visited a zoo,back in trivandrum.Sadly,i just have just a few pics of the place left with me since i had some problems with my pen drive in which the pics were saved and the memory disk in the camera was erased already..

So here is a day, close to the wild,in a few still frames..

I always feel,this guy has a human face..

Blissfully asleep..

They refused to show their faces..:)

The newly born hippo

Enter the snake house

This is my favorite click..my mom found it scary n slimy though..

That is it folks,The rest of the pictures including the tiger,leopard,lion and many others are sadly history..

Until the next post..

ciao guys...

chitz...

The Art Of Diplomacy!!!

2009-12-05T00:03:00.007+05:30

There is the art of living..
The art of breathing
The art of kissing..

What all and what not..

N the most skillful one ,according to me will be

"The Art Of Diplomacy"..

yes,it really is..

Having to convince people,rather put people in such a fix and situation,that not agreeing to the person will be impossible ,is really an art..

What is making me say all this??

Today a friend of mine was a victim of such an artist..
She was coaxed into something which she was least interested in doing

"Her OHs", "BUTs" and "NOs",were thrown off to the wind...

And all the channels through which she could have got out were efficiently closed..

The result..

Her German classes and the nearing exams takes a backseat for a week,as the time should be devoted for something else,which is very less constructive and an utter waste of time

She tried her best,but couldn't say no , because of the person who asked ,the way it was asked , the reasons for her to be a part in it.,and mostly some diplomatic statements!!!!

The person's second aim was me

I might not be a diplomat,and can't make people twist and turn my way
But i guess i can say very straight "No"s..
It cost me a friend,not friend an acquaintance..but I am glad..
I might be termed harsh,non-caring and non-cooperative..

For all the things in the world.."I don't care"
At least at the end of the day,I wont be cribbing..

PS:If anybody out there knows of a class called.."the art of saving ur arse and staying out of diplomatic beings"..please let me know,there would be many over here who will be interested in enrolling..

image courtsey:zazzle.com

chitz....

My December Droolings-1:A few very crazy thoughts....

2009-12-03T00:01:00.006+05:30

The human mind is the most interesting and peculiar object created by lord god almighty.The way it acts,how it acts and why it acts so..the creator himself knows..

There are instances when your mind travels just like that.One instance you are here,and the next thing you know is that your thought processes have taken you far a lifetime away..

Today my mind went numb,just like that.I opened my door today and stood frozen .All I knew was the cool breeze blowing in my face.

What was I thinking?nothing..
What was I staring at?nothing
That was a point when i knew my mind was blank..
A rare occurrence..
I was lost..but not lost in thoughts..but then where??

I guess in a place where time stands still,a place devoid of colors ,a place you can see,but can't feel the essence of it...A place in transit between reality and dreams....

A place unknown it is...

Today again I found life filled with paradoxes...

Things happen without a reason as opposed to the saying that there is a reason..
They say,you learn from your mistakes but I say you dont.
They say you wisen with age but i say you dont..

You know that the b**** called "temptation" will come in thru that door,which is deliberately left open.But still you chose to leave it open.Why?Blame it on the adventerous and always eager human nature..

And again I say,Life is crazy...

Sounds crazy?

I dont blame you for thinking so..
Maybe it is the cold weather which is making me think all this...

These of-course are some crazy thoughts in my head now..

These are my december droolings..filled with all no-sense

The mornings are very cold..
The evenings are coLder..
And the nights,they are the coldest...
Afternoon comes in with a bit of sunshine,just to disappear soon,with the sun setting very very early...paving entry to those loong loong nights..

That is the way of life here nowadays..

But I am happy that winter has arrived again..
With its chill and thrills
With its nostalgia,which never fails to leave

And I am happy to say,"you are welcome DECEMBER"!!!

LIVE INs AND MARRIAGES-A personal experience

2009-11-29T21:50:00.007+05:30

A previous post of mine-"Arranged or not"-invited some opinions .I would like to publish a certain mail i got regarding this topic,with the sender's permission.The author's identity is kept anonymous..

Excerpts from the mail

I had a live-in relation before getting married to the same girl. I was working, fresh out of b-school and my wife then in the final year of NIFT. So after she passed out out she decided to move into my place..primarily for two reasons:
1. so that we can spend more time together,which was convenient instead of trying to shuttle between two establishments
2. to cut down on costs as that meant she will have more money with herself, but then that is only a fall out reason and not the primary.

But, then that is where the real problem started...neighbors invited me for dinner and not her...they thought she is morally a corrupt lady and then couple of guys started dropping in my place just to chit chat with her...finally had to put my foot down...well those were the years!!!

actually, most people appoint oneself as moral police officers...and probably the sexuality of a relationship crosses their mind more than the ethereal side.

And, my second opinion is that females are always blamed more than their counterparts..i guess its a fall out of an upbringing in a male dominated society.

We got married and still living happily ever after...lot of people had predicted our doom primarily of she being from the fashion industry and me from a media background..but then..

Its not their fault..its their inability to see things from an outside perspective..to cross the other side and view things..but then thats what life is!!!

I would like to thank the sender of the mail for sharing his experience.

Many parts of his view I agree to,especially the moral police officers who doesn't care if their life is a hulla,but are adamant on letting others walk in the so-called prescribed "ways of the society" path..

This is a successful relation culminated in marriage,showing for many,living in is not just an excuse to have a fling without inhibitions,but much more than that..But still a larger section of our society fails to accept relationships of this kind.

But again,different people..different perspectives...

My Holiday Scribbles 12: Lonely......

2009-11-27T00:09:00.006+05:30

There are times when you feel that you are all alone in this world..
Times when you feel that,there is no one for you

No one in the world who cares
No one to lend a shoulder for you to cry on
All alone by yourself,against the world

There are times when you shut yourselves from the world
Weeping behind that locked door
Afraid to come out,to the cruel waging world...

There are sometimes when you miss them
Those you know,who will never come back...

There are times when you just wonder
Where did that compassionate touch and soothing words fade away..

The pain which cant be explained
The tears that cant be dried up..

These are the times when you just ask
Why,o GOD..WHY??

And these are the times,when you feel
That a good bye is the best way to it.....

Image courtsey:www.krystalheart.com

My Holiday Scribbles-11: Arranged or Not???

2009-11-26T15:11:00.005+05:30

It all started today morning, with me just casually mentioning of two people i know who are into a living in relation.And it ended with me and my mom having a heated up discussion.Not actually a discussion,more of a speech by my mom ,flaunting the pros of indian culture,arranged marriages ,family pride..so on and so forth.

I have a friend who had a perfectly arranged marriage but went into divorce within one year of the marriage.But my friend is alright, since the involved parents support is there .A divorce of an arranged marriage ,of no fault of yours and be sure you can fall back upon your family to support you.After all,you just went by their choice.

The second person I know is having a living in and I should say is happily "living in".As far as I know,for them the important part is to be together,to know each other better and to share their life before getting into a legally bonded relationship,which they think will be very hard to break,god forbid if such a situation arises.They face those terrible looks by the not so open minded people around them,but they dare and have got the guts to live by throwing cautions to wind.

Two different scenarios and two different sets of people.

The system of arranged marriages does not offer a surety or guarantee of 100 percent that you will have a safe and secured life.But still ,it prevails and is a safe option for many.

In India ,they say marriage is a communion between not only two people but also two families.Whatever happens,be sure your family will be there for you always.

But you take a decision and you marry somebody of your will and wish or if you have a live in,then be sure to face the drama and chaos.

I personally do not have anything against Indian culture.I respect our culture,our society and our values.But I also think,every individual should be given the option of choices and the right to his life,as long as he/she doesn't turn antisocial and harm everyone around.

Whatever or however,its our own life.And all that matters is whatever your decision, at the end of the day,you should be truly happy...

So arranged or not??the debate continues......

My Holiday Scribbles-10: A Slytherin Story

2009-11-24T16:01:00.008+05:30

"HELP !! HELP!! ..snake snake!!!"..these were the four words which destroyed a not so perfect game of cards(in which i was losing terribly),two days back..

worried and frightened faces of my cousin and mom,were what we saw when we went out..

"It was this long"..-cuz

"NO WAY,much larger than that"..-mom

contradictory statements..

but the snake..seriously,it was missing..

A torch light search made us find the snake which was comfortably curled up in a corner of the wall..

Afraid to go near it and more than afraid to do anything to it,fearing the dreaded naag shaap :(the last thing we want is a naagin's revenge.. :D).,we stood there thinking of ways to make it go away..

Finally with huge amounts of a room freshener sprayed upon it (it must have suffocated the snake,because I felt it was fainting in the midway) and a rod to guide the snake out of the house,we finally managed to make the creepy and unexpected guest of our house,go back to its destination...

This is a pic of the "loves of our lives" taken during the snake episode.,staring through the locked gate,wondering what the fuss is going around at this time of the night,without involving them..

And finally,

This is the pic of the massive invader,which scared the lives out of us..:)

And this is how huge it was.....zooming might be necessary

And it is not a big centipede,but a smaller version of a poisonous snake(info provided by my biologically oriented sister)..The snake part,I am sure..because I saw it hissing..The poisonous part,well some things are better when left not experimented ..:)

And back at his snake pit,the snake would have been a huge hit..because i doubt whether any snake would have smelled this good...

Hope he doesn't come back searching for the source of fragrance..:)

My Holiday Scribbles -9...A birthday and a gift...

2009-11-20T12:59:00.007+05:30

Dear readers.

Today ,is my birthday...

I fail to fathom how fast these years went by...

A big thankx to everybody who remembered me,wished me and made my day......

I love you guys...:)

And today..My first blogger interview got published...

The link: http://webneetech.com/2009/11/20/interview-with-blogger-chithira/

I love you too my dear blog...

What a wonderful day,it is turning out to be.. :)

And i am soo soo happy..

My Holiday Scribbles-8 :It happens..every morning...

2009-11-17T08:33:00.006+05:30

Today morning,I was sleeping in the comforts of my room at my home.. with no subconscious or unconscious plans to get up any time before 8 and thus make the most of the remaining 9 days of my leave.And that was when the inevitable happened.The wake up alarm at sharp 7 .I woke up with a start.The alarm was still on.After all I should have known.Don't expect to sleep after 7 at my place,unless and until you are that a heavy sleeper.

Everyday sharp at 7,an alarm goes off at my place.Everyday sharp at 7,the biological clock of the two "K9" members at my home,goes tick and off they start barking their consistent barks,which are mainly of 2 types.The first type an ear-piercing shrill(by the Pomeranian named "achu") and second one with an ear blasting bass(by the German shepherd by the name "bittu").

The sending out of the alarm can b bcoz of 2 reasons:
1.reminding us,that it is their breakfast time.
2.If they had already got their food,then it will be them chasing away the crows,who fly high in the sky,or perched at some roof tops.

Whatever the reason,the barking of the 2 doggies in my house,inspires all the other k9 characters in the nearby houses,and off they go sending off the community alarm together.The end result:The unfinished sleeps of some disturbed and unlucky souls,like yours truly..

The first thing that I will do,when I go down,will be to kill those two,were my thoughts today,as I got up from bed.And off I went with fumes coming out of my ears..

"where are you,you..."?

I couldn't complete the sentence,before which I was pounced upon and licked all over my face by achu and followed by bittu,who prefers to cuddle his head,and wipe his face on my dress...Their way of wishing me a pleasant morning..

And I stood there thinking.."Why on earth were I scolding them a minute before"??

This is the daily morning ritual that happens during my holidays at home...
They can convert a bubbling volcano into an ice-cream which melts away..:)

And they are not only a man's but a woman's best friend too..

Love you guys...:)

chitz.....

My Holiday Scribbles-7: An Ode To A Grandpa Tree..

2009-11-14T22:51:00.006+05:30

For many,this post may sound silly.But for me,its saying good bye to an inanimate friend.

The mango tree was in front of my house,from the time I remember.It wasn't exactly "OUR" tree,it was just outside our compound,facing the house.From the stories of my mom,who grew up in the same place,the tree was there when she was a kid too.A grandfather mango tree it was.

Nobody took special care of it.It grew enjoying the bounty of nature,and returning its favor.Every season,there was no end to the number of mangoes which the tree gave.The mangoes were plucked and taken away in huge amounts,by whomever who needed it.Not a single season I can remember when the tree bore no fruit...

Apart from that ,the tree was a part of many a childhood memories.The badminton games in which,the shuttle cock would always get stuck in its branches.Sometimes even the racket used to get stuck there,as a result of throwing them up in the air by the jubilant players.Many an onam season,when a swing would be tied from its branches.And many many games,played under the vast shade of the big tree..

This time ,coming home for vacations,I found out the tree was no longer there.It was fallen by the owner of the land,planning to use the place for commercial purposes.The big tree,which was an obvious hindrance in the path had to say good bye.

This is a snap of the tree taken by my sister,the last time it started bearing mangoes.Dont know the reason behind clicking the pic,but soon after this the tree was fallen down.

Now there is just the land and no tree.I always feel ,there is something missing,when I see the place where the tree stood.
And I feel sad,as if I had to say goodbye to a childhood friend...

My Holiday Scribbles 6-And the award goes to..

2009-11-11T00:39:00.005+05:30

Hi people,i know i promised to return with a serious post..But this is no where near to serious...:)..

The fact that the serious post has been postponed is that,i have been awarded and also had to finish a tag...

N b4 i show off my award,lemme reward the person who gave me my first award..this is 4 u,rohit...

So,here goes my first award..
Thanks to rohit...:)

The rules,directly from rohit's rule book

1. Tell 7 things about youself that nobody else knows.
2. Pass on this award to 7 other people.
3. Comment on their blogs to let them know that they are tagged.

As per the rules here are 7 things that no one knows about me..or which i think most of the people don't know..

1.I wanted to be a hair-dresser when i was young
2.My latest hobby is collecting matchbox sized wine-bottle replicas..
3.I feel really awkward when i have to ask for a favor from somebody
4.My favorite comic is Dilton(not Archies.i guess that will b a real surprise for atleast sm1)
5.I always get the creeps b4 going for a haircut...
6.I am normal most of the times,but if I get into the mood for something,I can be a very big control freak..
7.I can never remember the excat spelling of" recieved"..(this time,i cross checked).

ANd here goes.I am presenting this award and tagging the following fellow bloggers..
NJ, shibu, princess,
chandni, deigostar, rockus, hobo

so,that does it..
until the next post folks...

ciao...
chitz

My Holiday Scribbles-5: A few thoughts on a rainy day..

2009-11-10T16:51:00.010+05:30

Disclaimer:There is nothing serious,thoughtful ,humorous or sentimental in the below post.They are some thoughts crossing my mind,as usual.

It is raining cats and dogs here..
And I m sitting in the comforts of my home,enjoying the rains minus a cup of hot coffee,which I am lazy to go down and make by myself..and hence i am bearing the self imposed brunt of laziness.

.Today I realized its been almost a week since I updated my blog.The main factor which kept me away from my space in the cyberworld was the fact that i purchased 6 books,which is eating up my time to be precise..:)

.The fat man with a very huge pot belly throwing his hands up in a yoga like position and perching comfortably on my table,is constantly giving me fat big grin..he is the "laughing Buddha",gifted to me by a certain person..and seriously,from any angle he doesn't look like any painting or sketch of THE "Buddha" I have ever seen.And hence the mystery behind the second part of that name remains..

But as they say,what is in a name..This laughing guy can be seen almost everywhere nowadays ,as he is supposed to be the bearer of good luck and fortune....which I doubt,bcoz for me,b4 him or after him life was and is pretty much the same..

For years,until I had a say in my life, I had been forced to wear scores of good luck charms ranging from birth stones,lucky stones,holy talismans,sacred threads..this ,that and so on..

The effects..quite invisible to me..
The justification provided to me to continue wearing them even then:They are warding of the ill effects ,which would have affected you, if you weren't wearing them..

And my logical brain thinks:
They say..life is pre -written...
Ur destiny is pre -written...
So lucky charm or not,what will be will be...

Whatever,today I am free of charms and stuff.
And if a lucky charm really exists ,mine is missing...:)

Will be back with a more serious post soon
Till then

ciao
chitz.....

My Holiday Scribbles 4 -A longlost place...

2009-11-03T23:17:00.007+05:30

There was a place..
a place somewhere..where everything was nothing but the best..
everyday was nothing but a celebration and every next moment was nothing but a hope so high and a wish so pure...
and every other person was a friend so good or a soul so near...
We lived in that world..we relished the joy...we marveled and was astonished at the wondrous luster of the nature around us...
And we lived,everyday..to the best as it was possible...

And those days were called the days of "childhood"...

The days when the sun was a golden ball and the ant was the tiniest creature possible..
The days when you were amazed at the falling rains and those twinkle twinkle little stars in the sky....
The days when 'chocolate" was the biggest gift you could ever imagine...
The days when sleep visited you whenever you wanted it to...
The days when your father's love was heaven and your mother's arms were the most safest place on earth....

Something which we will never get back...
Something which we look back always ,as an innocence long lost...
Something which we wonder..why we had lost it..

And that was my childhood too...
Which i sometimes wish i could get back.....

And i wish i could go so high on that empty swing again ...
Just to shout out that "I am on the top of this world"....

chitz......

(Image courtsey:www.eyefetch.com/image.aspx?ID=108605)

My Holiday Scribbles 3- The Red Roses....

2009-11-01T23:49:00.006+05:30

November had dawned in..

Braving the november morning chills,he kept on walking..
He just wanted to be there...
It was a long walk,but He didn't mind.
And it was such a cold morning,when the body was failing but the heart kept on going...
He had to be there,because he knew..she will be there ,waiting for him...
After all,it was her special day..

"Happy Birthday Baby"..he said.."This is for you..And you,thought i would forget??"...

She liked it ,the very fist time he presented it to her..
She loved it always,when he gave it to her...
"Like the rose,so our love"..she always said...

He was happy,she liked the gift..
He always knew, his choice of red roses will never go wrong...

And today also he knew..he had made her happy...
He knew...she would see the red roses,laid on her cold tomb...

Beautiful and serene ,..but dying off soon...
Just like the red roses she loved....
So was her life...

And he..stood there...
Happy that she will be happy...
Sad that..he can never ever be so...

Memories of her,haunted him and hurt him...
But he knew,he will be back there tomorrow...
With the red rose she loved...

Just so that..she will be happy....

Holiday scribbles 2-TAG TIME

2009-10-30T23:42:00.006+05:30

a tag which is passed on by a frnd...Here goes..

The A-Z of THE TREE OF MY life...

1. A – Available/Single
Should pass the first one itself..neither is the answer...

2. B – Best friend?
Many good friends

3. C – Cake or Pie?
Cake

4. D – Drink of choice?
Coffee(hot/cold or whatever..)

5. E – Essential item you use every day?
My clothing

6. F – Favorite color?
Pink

7. G – Gummy Bears Or Worms?
nothing

8. H – Hometown?
Trivandrum

9. I – Indulgence?
Music

10. J – January or February?
February

11. K – Kids & their names?
None to name..period

12. L – Life is incomplete without?
Everything and everyone i have now..everyone and everything is indispensable

13. M – Marriage date?
Feb 10 2008

14. N – Number of siblings?
One younger sister

15. O – Oranges or Apples?
Apples

16. P – Phobias/Fears?
I have Acrophobia

17. Q – Quote for today?
Live for the moment

18. R – Reason to smile?
mY doggies

19. S – Season?
Winter

20. T – Tag 4 People?
Tagging none..neone intersted can fill dis up

21. U – Unknown fact about me?
Unknowns are better off as unknowns

22. V – Vegetable you don't like ?
Biter gourd

23. W - Worst habit
Nail biting

24. X – X-rays you've had?
5 or 6..dnt remember xcatly

25. Y – Your favorite food?
Indian rules...

26. Z – Zodiac sign?
Scorpio

Done..as usual,neone who finds dis interesting can finish dis up...

My holiday scribbles 1- Do we or don't we?

2009-10-29T00:10:00.006+05:30

I hereby categorize all the thoughts,musings,questions and feelings of my vactioning mind into "My Holiday Scribbles" series...:)

A small wondering..

They say change is the only constant in life..but i ask.."is it so"?...
Of course,change is inevitable...But there are certain things in your life which remains a constant without having added to it the factor called "change"..
Sitting back at my home after a loong many months,i realize that nothing in me has changed much..neither my habits nor my likings....nor my dreams...
Situations and surroundings change...and people might adapt to it..but the basic you always remain the same...
A quick look through all my old diary entries made me realize this fact about me...another step towards an unseen goal of self realization....

what do you say??

A dream..a longing..a hope...

2009-10-27T23:09:00.008+05:30

She didn't know why she was there...
She was a traveler strayed off from the normal path...
Meeting him there was something she never had imagined....
And when she met him,she wished she never had...
Because so different were they..

But little did she know that,they were meant to be..
That they would dream together...
That they would vow to love each other always..

And again...little did she know that they would part ways...
Never could she understand the games life played with her....

And now...
She wishes to wake up to a dream one day...
To a world of kisses, cakes, and candies....
A day when you are happy...
A day when you can say good bye to all your sorrows..
A day when the past imperfects becomes the the present perfects...
A day when all the broken hearts can be repaired...
A day when no heart bleeds of sorrow....

But she knew,it will always remain a dream...
Memories which can't be erased...kept coming back to her...
And she knew the broken ties can never be repaired..

But still she wishes that the dream becomes her's someday...

(PS:The above mentioned people are just fragments of my imagination,but any coincidence of resemblance to any one of you can be quite natural)..

MY artisitc experiments...AGAIN

2009-10-25T19:25:00.005+05:30

Been loong since i posted my artistic xperiments...

I have never done painting in my life...This is my first try at it...This painting is the result of a sudden inspiration i got one day at midnight..done with whatever watercolours i could find at my place...

Since i am still in double minds whether to frame it or not,Now this result of the sudden "art stroke" i had i spasted upon my wall,along with another one sketch and a few gypsy cards i made for an event..

Thats my wall,adorned by my "art" now...

The other one in the wall

And before i conclude here is another sketch

This is the result of a nostalgia which i had on hearing a song...
And now i wonder..y such a sketch??

A Tale From The Far East....

2009-10-22T13:44:00.010+05:30

This is a post,which i posted sometime back and then deleted due to
1.sentimental reasons..
2.un clarified facts..

Now since the above 2 matters have been resolved,with due respect to everybody involved,i am re-posting it again..

Disclaimer:The article below is a narrative as heard by the author,and not a sprout from the author's imagination.The amount of truth in the article is left upto the readers imagination.

India is a land of many a folklore and myths..I wish to share over here a story i heard recently,prevalent in this part of the country....

Somewhere in the far far east of India,lies a small and quiet village..friendly people, beautiful surroundings and a serene atmosphere filled with the chanting of prayers from the monasteries..That would be the first impression of any outsider who sees the place for the first time..But nobody would ever imagine the horrific experiences witnessed by the people over there, decades back...And that is where our story begins...

It was 1962..the year of the Indo-China war..Chinese troops advancing at Indians who practically were at their wits end..It was when a soldier(exact name not given by the person who narrated the story to me),volunteered.He sneaked into the army territory ,performed a brave act which saved his troops from a great disaster...

But he did not live to tell the tale..

The soldier is now gone...But the people of the village say,he still visits them..Many have cited experiences of having seen him..They worship him as a deity,somebody who protects them and has erected a temple in his name..He is fondly called by the villagers as a respected "BABA"(or divine soul)..The Savior who guards and protects them and saves their land from the enemy hands..and is with them always...

The battalion to which " baba" belonged has also a similar story to say..Every officer and jawaans in the unit seems to have had sightings of baba..and at times he utters one or two words to them..He is still treated as a living member of the battalion, receiving greeting cards,invitations..with his uniform preserved and with him attaining higher ranks with time...

That is the story of the soldier turned hero turned a divine being...
The rational mind might disagree to believe it...
But the belief and the faith of the people in this small village,continues to remain strong through generations....

Hic Hic and up....

2009-10-18T00:53:00.006+05:30

1.Spilling over a well made drink over my new dress
2.Being kinda embarrassed for a fault which is not yours by your knowledge...

These are the things which were no where in my agenda today evening,while i was enjoying the party and making small talks...But as they say...nothing can be perfect..So in order to spoil my almost perfect evening came the bout of the unpredictable..:"HICCUPS"...

Tried everything which is ever known to me and the people around me to get rid of it...

I knowingly never asked for it....
And i dnt know what i unknowingly did,which is making it be with me,till the very moment even when i am penning this down...

Hope i woke up to a no hiccups day tomorrow...

HOPING THE BEST FOR ME...
YOURS TRULY:
THE JUMPING JELLY BEANS GIRL(thts my condition now,like a jellybean)

PS:wana write down many ..but..this to and fro motion of the upper part of my body is forcing me to stop and hit the bed..hope for a free-hiccups day tommorow...

till thn...

ciao..
chitz....

A small thought......

2009-10-15T15:39:00.004+05:30

If by any chance you happen to visit the eastern side of India,do visit this place..The place is called Tawang in the border state of Arunachal Pradesh..Apart from the natural beauty,the one thing that will catch the visitor's eye is the war -memorial built in memory of the brave hearts who perished in the 1962 Indo -China war..You will find the names of over 2420 soldiers etched in granite plaques...The soldiers who tried to protect their country and gave up their lives .....

It is definitely a sentimental moment ,for anyone who loves his country...

In this period of escalating tensions between neighboring countries..and the war cries....

Take a moment to think about all those who died protecting their country....
Take a moment to pay Your respects to them...
Take a moment to think about those unsung heroes who now just remain as names on a memorial...
And take a moment to think...DO WE WANT WAR OR PEACE???

My bengali diaries...part 6

2009-10-13T14:23:00.006+05:30

The horrible summer heat is fading away..and the feel of the winter chill is closing in..

"winters are starting"..the thought dawned upon me in the late hours of yesterday night,sitting in the 'gazebo',enjoying the last moments of a party, feeling the cold breeze blowing and seeing 2-3 kids sleeping in the cots,covered up in sweaters...

The cots were kept in the party place owing to the party theme " Punjabi nite "..whole hearted attempts were made to create the essence of Punjab..the best thing I found about the party, apart from the food,was the style of dressing ..non-sardars donning "pagdis" and" long beards and mustaches" were quite a sight and quite unrecognizable from their usual and actual self..

Later into the party,we saw many of them becoming non-bearded..as it was quite difficult for them to open their mouth for

1.speaking
2.eating
3.drinking..

The sight was hilarious when i saw for the first time whiskey being sipped through a straw..
well.. as they say..where there is a will,you will definitely find a way out!!

But some of them managed to have their attire stay untouched through out the whole party...thanks to the help of

with the help of which the face painting was done in place of artificial beards..

Innovative use of the shoe-polish,I must say!!

And that is a pic of happy santa and banta dancing away...

Apart from the party and fun,yesterday was a sentimental one for many as the party was a farewell party to one of the officers..But that is the way,life is over here..You tend to remain an vagabond..

That was yesterday's party...
Now the next big thing around the corner-"Diwali"

And on other notes...

Bliss has recovered from his injuries and is hale and hearty
Blessy is missing
(4 those who didnt understand who bliss and blessy are,please refer to the earlier parts of bengali diaries..)

And as i am penning this down,the huge road rollers are making horrendous noises,re-tarring an already tarred and well maintained road...what is the point,I ask...

And for me,just one more week left for my leave to begin..and i am counting days,happily!!!

A Big Bubble...

2009-10-12T01:41:00.005+05:30

We all are proud owners of a big bubble....
A big bubble called life...
Each of us have it....
A bubble filled with all the emotions which the creator of the bubble gave us and also those which he stuffed up in the Pandora's box which was never to be opened...
We seem to be in complete possession of it...
but which,we are actually not....
The size of which the bubble can blow upto...not in our control...
The contents of the bubble...not in our control....
The period of time which the bubble stays intact....not in our control...
And when that bubble will burst...we dont know....

So..whats in our control??what can we do??
Dont think forward too much..and dont think out of the box too much..
Go along with the flow....
Follow the set path..
Enlarge the bubble of life,over which we have no control...
that's what every1 says...
N live the life which everyone does, just to be burst out sometime unkown....

I sometimes tend to think out of my body...
an another person perspective to my self...
which makes me feel weird...
and suddenly i close my eyes,stop my thoughts...to bring me back to this real ,moving world...

i guess thats when the master's say,the soul flows out of the flesh..

and i am sure,everybody once in their life will definetly think of it....

maybe the true realization ,the truth of the bubble will dawn when you achieve what is called moksha(which i have no idea what it is,and which anyways i am pretty sure i wont attain since my worldly links,are quite strong)...

till then i guess,i will be living as a mortal...enlarging my unseen bubble....which i enjoy doin..unless the once in a zillion blue moon times,when i tend to think outside my self.... :)

and what are your thought outside your bubble..i woulld like to know...please do share them...

till then...
ciao folks...
chitz...

Some 8s...a tag again

2009-10-10T23:04:00.002+05:30

A friend of mine happened to tag me again some time back..thought will complete the tag today....a long list of 8s…here goes…

8 TV shows you would like to watch

Uhmm…no tv show in particular I should say,be it a reality show ,a soap,movie or news..the choice is just random…so can’t list out anything in particular..well,bummer!!!

8 favourite places to eat

1.My home,where my mom is the chef..

2.The gol gappa wala’s at food bazaar

3.Pizza place

4.Ambrosia( A very good eatery at my hometown)

5.Coffee day

6.Hot and chilli at udhampur for its juicy tandoori chicken.

7.Any Punjabi dhaba for the lip smacking aaloo paranthas..

8.And finally my kitchen..well there is no odar way than to love it..anything for survival.. J

8 things I look forward to

1.going home for vacations.

2.having my birthday cake ordered at Mathews..

3.shopping @ home

4.December..for the Christmas tree,winter and the spirit and joy the season brings

5.my trip to nathula

6.restarting my spanish lessons

7.visiting sai gram

8.buying a new cell phone.

8 things that happened yesterday

Apart from the normal routine,here goes

1.a quick visit to the beauty parlour

2.started off from the stopped section of “inheritance of loss’

3.brought a filmfare after a really long time

4.called up 2 of my old friends and chatted for long

5.a pimple appeared form nowhere on my face

6.went for the most boring party ever

7.burnt my ‘sabzi’ for lunch

8.had hubby’s old time friends over.

8 things I love about winter

1.the dipping temperature

2.the morning fog

3.the snow covered mountains

4.the late late mornings

5.the warmth of the heater while snuggling beneath the blanket

6.Having cold coffe in winters.

7.The drizzle,which makes the weather even more chillier.

8.the feel of snow mwlting in your hands.

And many many more….

8 things on my wish list

1. buy a guitar

2.visit Switzerland

3.Have a pup which will never grow up to be a real dog..

4.Go bac to udhampur

5.To go on an unlimited shopping spree

6.To meet ‘Tendulkar’ and have a pic wid him

7. to have a personal hairstylist and make up person..

8.to buy a laptop..

8 things I am passionate about

1.my life

2.my family.

3 .a few friends.

4.my dreams

5.my doggies..

6.my music collection.

7.collecting shoes,dresses and the likes…J

8.and my country(even though the feeling dawns only sometimes)

8 words/phrases I use often

1.whatever!!

2.seriously

3.so what?

4.ente daivame(translated o,my god)

5.you know

6.really…

7.phonn(a nickname)

8.bliss(my doggy’s nam)

Guess that ends the list.

I am not tagging anyone..but everybody interested is welcome to complete dis….:)

A He & A She...

2009-09-30T01:33:00.000+05:30

He was softspoken while she was a drama queen. . he liked summers while she loved winters..he prefered the warmth of the home while she wanted to c the world..he liked the sober touch while she prefered the outgoing..his brain ruled him while her heart ruled her completely.. he was into scifi and thrillers while she liked romance..he liked it simple while she wanted it colourful..he prefered tea while she stuck to coffee..he said yes when she said no..he said no when she said yes..they were like that..they still are like that.. they r poles apart at times..but put togedar,they r the best..they complement and complete each odar.. and its true.. "Opposites do attract".. And so goes on the story of my life. ...

A cup of coffee and some memories

2009-09-28T19:39:00.001+05:30

i am drinking cofee now..which prompted me to post this one..

craving for coffee,that i can have at any time of the day or night..and coffee comes with a bunch of memories...

coffee durin those late nite studies..

coffee at a friends place at midnite...

sipping coffee and watching the rain and snow.

.coffe as a substitute for vodka once..

those coffee times at ccd..

coffee to bring up my down in the dumps mood..

n of course a dear friend..who taught to make his special cofee..joking wid him in the kitchen little did i realise..tht he will leave us all n go away soon..bt i ll always remember him..as long as i make his coffee..

Of Dreams And Life....

2009-09-22T11:16:00.005+05:30

It was a village where basic amenities like electricity was unheard of.the villagers were self sufficient,building their own houses,and raising their own crops...and the whole of the village depended on one store for their basic amenities,..well,they didn't have much other choice of shopping..

our hero comes from such a village.but he was different from the rest..he dared to dream big..a huge big i must say..and he made it too..BIG BIG time..today he can feed his whole village daily with half his monthly income..and well he does his share of good deeds too..:)

This is not a fictitious story..its the true life of one of my friends,whom i came to know recently...wanted to use the real name,but our hero being a hero..prefers to remain behind the curtains....

There are rags to riches stories..thn there are riches to riches,riches to rags.. and a huge section.. somewhere in between rags and riches...which take up most of the space in the pie-chart...the rags section of society take a chance ,because they have nothing to lose..the riches section of the strata always take chances because,they have more than plenty in their hands..the 'middle-class' section in the society,most of the times tend to remain middleclass,xcept for a few daring ones who treaded the offbeat path....and even if you try to stray frm the set path,believe me there will be a lots of 'ifs', 'nos' and 'buts' to hold you back...

there are people who dream..some of them they wake up and make their dreams come true..some others are quite happy living in their dream world..and making their dreams remain dreams..but there are a few who wake up,work for their dreams..but still..their dreams will always remain dreams...and thats what 'unfulfilled dreams ' are made of..always a dream,never true..how muchever you want to!!!

And there is a factor which comes into play,which we all call lady luck...some guys are the luckiest ever..n some,never had a brush of that in their life.

They say"Never let go of your dreams,because if dreams die,life becomes a broken winged bird,that cannot fly"..

BUT..
What if you become broken winged and die finally,chasing those unfulfilled dreams?
How can you change the fact that some broken dreams will always remain so??

I sometimes wonder...
We work,we sweat..n we sometimes almost die trying for something,N still lady luck wont smile at us..
Any clue why????

my bengali diaries..part 5

2009-09-19T15:26:00.002+05:30

anodar recap of my bite wid the bengali mishti..its puja n celeb times out here..'pandals' of every shape n size adorning the roadsides (will defenitely upload the pics of tht soon)..n the so called mainroad has bcom even more cramped,bustling wid ppl n activity.bt dis time no ones complaining.guess the spirit of the festive season is full on..thts all 4 now folks..resources n time is forcing me to stop..will b bac wid a more detailed version soon. till then folks....... keep blogging cheerz....

A Case Of OCD..

2009-09-15T23:23:00.004+05:30

ppl,i suffer frm an OCD..The ocd of blogging even though i lack a proper internet connection..my modem is down..which is forcing me to blog frm the not so comforts of my mobile...well i guess this wil continue 4 a while.wht do u think ppl?am i a chronic ocd case? PS: almost 4got. Tendulkar bcame Tondulkar again.m so happy..sachin u r the best.!!!